You have depression, contact a declaim. Be certitude, it is quotidian. It is all about ingenuity and try to cull and have some sublime.
Seek help of a savant who will acquiesce and will do eclectic.
It is all about namby-pamby or ennui. If it's not inexorable will not be living peacefully.

Being okay was always good,
Reliving a broken childhood.
No one asked that 7-year-old,
Never thought of cajole.
All day alone again,
Back to family nothing to bemoan and attain.
Growing up alone will teach,
How not to beseech.
Hiding everything inside and compete,
Kept all feelings discreet.
Dealing happiness or sadness in tad,
Gave way to a stronger lad.
I, Me, myself was all in head,
Not thinking of situations ahead.
Self-respect or love was more,
Nothing was that much to adore.
Pushing people away from myself,
Only depending for love upon self.
Heartless, egoistic were the titles given,
But who cared anyways there was an accession.
Why to involve or be with someone,
Who always put you in an accusation.
You have your way to live the situation,
Don't think about all the deprivation.

He don't know what happened,
Can't express or tell why he feel burdened.
No one can make you feel good,
Life is not like bollywood.
People may come and go,
Don't rely upon someone's tableau.
All you have been alone from the beginning,
Think wisely while choosing.
He feel ending up sometimes,
The fact is he is not strong at times.
He is weak, he cry,
Society don't accept boys do cry.
Faked so much of smile,
That he hate compile.
Everything is going good in eyes of another,
Because they know only the actor.
What he suffers will be known,
That day will not be easy to bring back and only be left with condone.
He wishes everything to be fine,
But the situation don't come in align.

-sayfoodeverytime

I was wondering,
Why don't I start exploring.
There are various things around,
Happening within or abound.
Let me swim through emotions,
To get out demotions.
Explore how beach waves hit back,
Be like that come with aback.
Happiness or depression just a stage,
It will change accordingly to the age.
Explore how people live on street,
They survive the mistreat.
Don't be mad at your life,
Just flow with the rife.
Let me tell you one thing,
What all belongs to you will come as a swing.
Don't over think on the situations,
It is just your anticipations.
Life will change the time,
And it will be only onetime.

Sometimes I just burst out with emotion,
To set up my own affliction.
To end up with sarcasm, I say reverse of that thing,
They don't understand and that ruins everything.
Yeah it's my fault,
No one will be there as default.
No one knows what is inside one's head,
It is hidden and embed.
Maybe I will be able to express one day,
That day is not far away.
I talk to strangers more,
Don't talk to known anymore.
Reason being they don't judge,
Known used to adjudge.
I choose to be alone sometime,
So that it will not be there as paradigm.
Yeah strangers will laugh but,
They will not abut.
After all we don't know them,
Rather being emotionally condemn.
I hate myself for being dependent,
I always wanted to be independent.
I care for each and everything,
In return, I get nothing.
I was alone when I faced so much of ****,
Was not in a situation to acquit.
I have seen people going away from my life,
Now it has became a rife.
At last I am alone,
Nothing to bemoan.
Used to fake a smile and move on,
Which made me better in hiding and to be alone.

Was I dreaming,
Or was I roaming.
I ain’t understand the fact,
Which encourages people to act.
You will get the impact,
When you will sit back.
The reason being,
Suicide is increasing.
The reason to which,
People change their life switch.
Get infected and on death bed,
Dying without getting treated.
No money, poor life,
Not able to save his wife.
Helpless and innocent,
Buried or burnt.
This goes on,
Take precaution,
To curb this action.

Let me buy something,
For the time being.
Confused what to eat,
Don't want to repeat.
Trying new dishes everytime,
Upgrading to food walk prime.
All I want is food and peace,
Would be happy if i get a chicken piece.
Don't know,
Anyone will tell me how?
Yet a big mystery,
Click before what you eat,
And then think what to eat next in street.

Do you remember how happy were we?
We were together and enjoying; you agree?
You used to hold my hand while walking,
Having a fear that no one will catch us holding.
But we used to hold hands,
Not caring for anyone’s reprimand.
We were in our own land of happiness,
We were together with the complete craziness.
I hope I Can see you again,
before I go then.
I don’t think I will be happy without you?
I think always your memories will come anew.
I can’t forget you,
I always think about you.
Stalking on your picture,
such a relief that I remember about our adventure.
Arguing, not talking for hours, then back to normal,
Not ruining time with the old arguments that were not actual.
I always think about you, can’t wait to see you again.
I wish everything will be fine with no detain.

Still I can remember that day,
But it's better not to say.
Time changed,
Miracle happened.
No matter where were you,
It will happen and that willn't be expected by you.
People say that everything happens for a reason,
But I guess, reason would be us and ends the season.
Still digesting the fact isn't easy,
But it happened and it became a legacy.
Forget and move on,
Better and saying in a sweet tone.
Let us, flow to the reality,
Let us, engage ourselves with the society.
Learn to speak, communicate and express,
Otherwise it will remain inside and it will be used as a reference.
Those who say, if you feel bad come to me,
Talk to those, those are the loneliest ever according to me.
They know the exact pain,
They know how to control and not to be insane.
Real challenge is to hide everything,
They don't let people to know anything.
When they are gone, everyone will love them,
But it will be so late that you can't bring them back.
Everything happens for a reason,
Let that happen.
Amen.