Wind tumbles leaves from their branches 
Like a hatchling from its nest

Sometimes nature's like an alarm
Pushing us from rest

But one thing I have learned from this
Is that the world knows what it's doing

It gives a little shove when needed
And into our future, we're parachuting

I love life the way it should be
Where we all have a soul mate
Where when we're born we see in color
Until our other's fate

But for me it's quite the opposite
I've never seen color a day in my life
All shades and highlights and different tones
Of the same old black and white 

Eventually I somehow came to terms
I accepted my colorless scheme 
So you can imagine how startled I was
When my reality took after my dream

I opened eyes to meet light shades of morning
To instead have them flooded with ***
I was bombarded by all of these new tints and tones
I couldn't ever select a choice one

Though after the initial shock of it all
I was startled once again more
With the realization that I finally found you
The someone meant to color my world

An aching present in my chest
A dull pulling at my heart
I've never been this far from home
Or from familiarity so vastly apart

Every breath is dragging out a little 
And my feet along in sync 
Flashes of home are taunting me
When my eyelids rest briefly to blink

So far from home, from comfort, from safe
Nothing's numbing the disorder inside
I've left early to make my way home
Continuously hastening my stride

Finally surrounded by home again
In the comfort of my room, my bed
I'm safe and sound but something's off
The ache within isn't dead 

I've finally pinned what the problem is
Why my heart remains askew
Despite the turmoil in my troubled mind
I've found that home has left with you

Every night now I fall asleep
With no one around but the stars
I think of how unfair it is
That they get to be where you are

They get to see you and wish you goodnight 
And greet you with the rising sun
I've always simply admired the stars
Now I wish that I could be one
 
I've started drawing my curtains closed
Just before the sun dips away
But I've forgotten of all the plastic copies
Which over my bed hauntingly play

Squeezing my eyes closed just doesn't work
Neither do clouds in the sky
And it pains me to know that I'll never be one
No matter how hard that I try

Not even twenty four hours
Have come to pass us by 
I can't push the ache away
No matter how hard I try

Not even a single week gone
With nine more left to go
There's never been another week
That's gone by quite this slow

Not even a single month down
With another in the way
Every breath is a little harder
And it's harder to wake everyday

But despite the heartache and the tears
I'm right here by your side
And I promise you with all my heart
That I will be till the day that I die

The rain is tapping on my window 
For the first time in a while
But it's not all the falling water 
That's troubling my smile 

The rain, to me, is comforting 
It's here when you are not
But then again it reminds me how
About me you forgot 

It's the only thing that's whispering
Sweet nothings in my ear
It's the only thing that's bothering
To take care of my tears

So now that the rain is back
I'm not lonely anymore
The painful ringing in my ears
Is hushed by the downpour

I don't mean to hurt you
When I don't tell you every thought
I'm just trying to protect your heart
From the pain bound to be brought

Sometimes my head just can't work right
And my heart just makes it worse 
It's just sort of in my nature
To put others first 

I sacrifice my peace of mind
So you can savor what's left of yours
You're battling just as hard as I am 
So I shelter you from my wars

It seems that I'm losing your trust
By not telling you these things 
The loss of trust is better than 
All the pain I'm bound to bring 

So I'm sorry for trying to save you
From the war within myself
I guess I do the most damage
When I'm just trying to help