the way my name escaped your lips
my name being whispered in my ear
by your voice
the only voice I ever desired to hear
now there's no chance to listen to your voice
knowing that can cause a tear
or two or three or a million
i want to know how you are
do you miss me
you said you were happier with me
then you spoke for me and said that I was unhappy
with you in my life
i miss telling you all I feel
I miss hearing silence or you listening
you let me say how I feel
if you wouldn't have spoken for me
I would have said yes, it's not easy
but you don't make me unhappy
being with you brings my heart to glee
but not when I know you don't want me

love
I hate it
well isn't that an oxymoron
I keep trying to find it
but when I do it's still not available
you see you have it
but you won't give it to me
you say
"go find it somewhere else"
but i can't
was it even love?
if it dies away
will we still have it,
if I stay away?
I don't know
and I won't say
how I feel anymore
because I'm just doing what you want
& showing faith
leaving you is what you want
and I hope it won't be long or feel long until I see you again

When I think about kissing you , I don't even miss you

My anger is stronger everyday I see you.. You're in danger

I'm scared I'll do something to myself, that will hurt you too

You*
    May
       Say
          It
   And Feel
       It

**But I Don't

I guess I won that stupid fight of "I love you more."

I still love you. Is that a bad thing? I can’t eat or sleep. My thoughts hallucinate at the mention of your name. I see your face. Everywhere; my dreams- you’re holding me close, and you never let go. Remembering that time we shuffled out over the desolate forest in our aging wellies- you’d squeeze my hand tighter for reassurance.  

I can still feel you’re warmth condensing against my skin. But it’s beginning to fade. .  And I’m lost. I’m beginning to drift away. Endlessly searching for that closure you bestowed within me. I need you. I’m lost without you by my side.

Everything seemed to erode when you’d left. The ache for forgiveness is still there and forever will be. You carved that dagger into my heart like it was funny. Like you found humor in my agony. It pierced through your azure globes as your smile widened at the excruciating pain you threw upon me. You just walked away and I shouted and I screamed;

COME BACK! COME BACK! COME BACK!

I just lay there on the ground. Numb.

You gazed deeply into my soul, robbed me from of the little purity I had left. You left me. Shattered. Broken. Unusable. You ripped out part of my heart as we said our goodbyes. And I still love you.

you said "I have to hurt you now so I'll hurt you less later"

but I didn't think that you would ever have to later...