crying to you was my only relief

and when you cried with me I felt like we were in this together

but then you said "I'm going to push you away" with tears streaming down your face and in your shaking voice

I couldn't cry myself out of relief

and I tried to touch you and you wouldn't resist but you wouldn't touch me back

I knew you wanted to but you thought you were doing me a favor

"you deserve better, I'm just going to be a loser" "I don't want that for you"

"you would never be a loser in my eyes" I whispered unclear

there was so many times that you would pull me close to you

but here wasn't the case

I'm out of tears now, I'll go through the motions but nothing will come out

I just want to talk to you
but you "don't want anyone to care about you"

"I don't understand" I cry
and you never said anything back to that

cause deep down you don't understand yourself either

I felt so much

But now it's gone

all my feelings their not strong

gone like yours were for awhile

And still are

I don't know if I should leave or float

and be there for you

Cause you might need me most

The thing is you don't know either

and that's why I'm stuck afloat

I don't want you to know that I'm in pain
I don't want to make your worries worse
you make it worse for me I will admit
But I promise to you I'm here to commit
everything is falling down
but when I look around everything has to do with you
how can I help you?
and what should I do?
"Say you're there for him"
but what do I say??
"just be there for him"
"this is the best thing that's going to help him"
but what do I do for him!!
I need an answer, but nobody can tell me
yes it would be easier to leave
but I'm not afraid to grieve
honestly I am here, but darling I don't know how to show you

I know what it's like to love someone
Love someone so much you feel worried for them
You want them to do there best
Cause you know they are better than that
feeling like everything you do for them just isn't enough
But it is.

It's more than enough.

I know what it's like to love someone more than they love you
When they are struggling the only thing you want to do is help them through
but everything you do doesn't feel like enough

But it's more than enough

I know what it's like to not be treated the same
I know what it's like denying that they don't feel the same
and trying to believe that if you were them they would do the same
Inside you know that you care too much,
But you love them to much to care too much
I know what it's like to be slowly erased

but I don't know what it's like to be loved too much

I gave you the key to my heart
And you lost it on the way to her house

all the others occupied my thoughts at night
but you... I think this might be right
cause you are all over my head in the morning, when I get out of bed
in the afternoon when I'm eating lunch and at night too
but you're always there
I guess that's fair if it's like that for you too