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some nights i wake
from another world;
another place and time
one where we made it.
i have lived out
so many different life’s
with you in my mind;
from better to worse
and i have loved you
just the same
in every last one.

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if my life was a novel
each experience
stained
forever in ink torn pages
somewhere within
a chapter is missing;
this is when i met you.
this is when everything good
happened all at once.
on those pages;
words dance
universes bend
stars weep
and time stops.
on those pages;
skies clear
seas calm
and i smiled.
for you arrived
just as a dream
from nothing
to a monsoon
a wildfire
burning through
tearing down
you revealed
the parts unseen;
an aurora borealis
a beauty so haunting
you brought me
to my knees in worship
and now;
after endless nights
countless moons
time has made me honest.
honest enough to admit;
i lost you
because i felt
so utterly unworthy
of someone
with so much wonder;
a magic unlike any other.
a bruise that never heals
i press it down;
it hurts to remember you
but it feels so good
to just remember
that it even happened at all.

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oceans swell and foam
within her;
i was a ship
upon her waves.
planets bend
dancing between us;
the stars, in audience
jealous of her beauty.
the universe held it’s breathe
the hands of time long frozen
something brought you to me;
a cruel fate she’s spun
for now i have seen eden.
i have eaten from her tree
i have tasted her magic,
and no other kind of love;
would ever be enough.

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i have loved you
in every way possible.
in secret,
behind whispers
hidden from sight;
words etched into canvas,
from another life.
in rapture
embraced
two bodies entwined;
too nothing but strangers,
the ghost in my mind.
i have loved you
in every way possible.
slowly
from nothing;
too then all at once.
infatuated,
possessed;
still craving your touch.

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i was an ocean
you; the moon
suspended in darkness
amidst a billion stars.
i’d reach for you every night
now; forever more
until the last star
burns into oblivion.
i’d reach for you every night
even knowing;
i’d never touch
your perpetual glow

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perhaps the greatest
suffering one can endure;
is too find someone
you cannot exist without;
and then existing without them.

sometimes i come here;
just to remember you.
sometimes i come here;
to read each word written
relive every moment stolen
like a favourite novel
i find your magic once again.
for here is all i have left;
and behind words
you exist forever
here you are my ghost
my midnight haunt
here i think of you
sometimes;
most times
always.