When his lips met mine,
When I gave in to this other guy,
it all felt wrong.
His skin burnt my skin,
my hands burnt in his grip.
it all felt wrong.
There was nothing there anymore,
nothing there for me to want.
I thought maybe I could get over you.
I'll do to him what you did to me.
But it didn't turn out that way.
Because I wanted to tell him no,
to tell him I'm in love with someone else
to tell him he can go to hell.
But I realized something.
I realize that no matter how many times I say that I love you,
that I'm in love you,
that I want nobody else to know me how you do,
that none of it changes the way that you feel.
How you're never going to love anybody ever again.
How you don't want to love me,
how you want to deny me.
And no matter if I see that you do love me,
you'll deny it.
So when his skin burnt my skin,
I let it burn.
I did not try to extinguish it.
Because you wouldn't care if he had me or not.

But once he left, I fell into my own arms.
I fell into my own arms, and I cried.
Because he will never matter to me.
Because no matter how badly he wants me,
I do not want him.
I want you.
My tears fell, and I held myself.
Because you weren't there to hold me,
and you never will be able to.

What is she to you?
Another body?
Another Tool?
You broke her once,
and never again,
you took her heart,
and smashed it to pieces,
you tore her to shreds
corrupted her meekness.

Look at what you've done,
you two-faced liar,
you're on the next high
just trying to get one step higher.

Look at yourself, you ***** piece of trash,
everything you say or do,
is all in a rush,
and all rather rash.

I'm not perfect,
but God forbid should I strike a woman for the moment,
cause when the law catches up,
it'll be time to confess your sins,
and confess to own it.

What have you done?!
What has she to you,
that you had to commit,
to say it led to what you said you had to do.

Why?
What was she to you?

the pain pierces into me
i want to tell you
help me get better
its time for you to know

please be my backbone
please hold me tight
when the pain starts
whisper to me that everything will all be alright

I need a friend and now you're gone
You said you'd stay but instead you've run.
I said I was sorry a million times,
Yet to you my sorry is lost in rhythms of rhymes.
It's a continuous cycle of yes and no,
One day you're here and the next day you go.
I can't seem to make you stay no matter what I do,
So maybe I should walk away and make me the one you lose.
You told me to make a choice, decide where you fit,
But I'm the one who has tried to bend and I'm the one whose split.
I don't know what makes you so special and I really don't care,
I just want you to stay but you won't and it seems so unfair.
What did I do but love you the best I could?
Except my love you don't want, to you it's no good.
I'm sorry I'm not your prince, I'm sorry I'm not your lover.
It just ***** those are the only roles you've left for me to uncover.
You know me better than anyone else in this world,
You know my secrets and my fears, you know me completely unfurled.
You told me what you need but now it's my turn,
I've always been told we accept the love we think we deserve.
The love I receive from you has been fickle and sparse,
Not one that will benefit my fragile heart.
It hurts to know that you can easily let go,
Of something I wish you would preciously hold.
Am I disposable, am I a bother to your life?
I'm sorry I try so hard to fit and make everything right.
I need a friend, someone constant and true,
Someone who would love me no matter their mood.
I won't settle anymore, I'm not a toy
That you can take out and play with when you want a little joy.
I know you try and love me but it's too hard,
So I will turn and walk away, I wont leave us with more scars.
I put up with so much and my armor is finally broken,
I withstood all I could, but now I have finally spoken.
I wish you would see how much I love and care,
About how I opened myself up and left myself bare.
But we're all blinded by our own points of view,
Each of our visions all torn up and askew.
I don't know what else I can say or what else I can do,
I just hope with my absence I can finally show that I truly love you.