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Rachael Judd Mar 2015
Life is only temporary
Not everlasting
It all ends
There is no forever
It is questionable
Wether there will be a tomorrow
So hold onto what you've got
Cause promises dont last
And everything is left unsaid
They say nothing is temporary, well theyre right even this life will end no matter how hard you try to make it.
Rachael Judd Mar 2015
I am constantly tearing apart my insides to search for any sign of life that is still left breathing
Rachael Judd Mar 2015
Cigarette after cigarette,
Somehow i still can't get your taste
Out of my mouth
Nicotine should burn
But now its medicine
For your lingering name
Printed across my teeth
Now instead of your mouth pressed
Against mine
The only thing that touches my lips
Is this cigarette
Each exhale riding your face
From my burning lungs
Rachael Judd Mar 2015
When did it stop? Did you stop loving me when I couldn't speak cause my throat was so tight from screaming in my dreams? Did you stop caring when I threw the sheets over my head because I didnt want you to see me crying? Did you stop loving me when I talked about my past and my future? Did you'd wish I'd just shut up? Did you still love me when you held my head in your hands and kissed my forehead and said "this love will never end"? Did you still love me when you showed up with messy hair and flowers in your hand? What about that time we walked through the park with our fingers intertwined and you said "although the sky is grey, the color in your mind colors the whole sky"? When did you stop loving me? When I couldn't get out of bed in the morning because love just wasn't enough strength to keep going? Was it when you left for a vacation with your parents cause they wanted you to think about your future? Was it because maybe I wasn't apart of that future? You said till the end. I didnt know that the end was a month ago, I thought the end was when I was dead. But now im barely breathing, so I might as well just be on my death bed. When did it stop?
Rachael Judd Mar 2015
Im staring at the moon
And I know its you
Im looking upon the stars
And I know thats where you are
The twilight sky
Reminds me of your simple eyes
The darkness around me
Is your presence guiding me
As I graze out into the land
I know your providing me a helping hand
Underneath this tree
Is where you told me to meet you at three (a.m)
That was the last night I saw you
And I know I will meet you again soon
Its these nights I miss you most
When I feel so abandoned and lost
You used to give me direction
But now I am constantly losing all affection
I see you in my dreams
Its not as easy as it seems
My dreams turned into nightmares
But I cherish the only moment I see you
Standing ghostly in the darkest night
I know its you
Rachael Judd Mar 2015
He told me he doesn't recognize me anymore
but when i tell him I'm the same person i was a year ago
My tongue starts to burn
I know I'm lying
That girl i see in the mirror
She can't be me.

So pale, you can see straight through her
Circles under her eyes like they've been carved with a knife
Skin so fragile, the touch of a feather would shatter her
Bones so defined
She seems so hollow

She can't be me
She can't be me
She can't be me

But everytime i feel her staring back at me
I see her in my shadow
Rachael Judd Mar 2015
My head rests on the root of the tree
Thoughts roaming through my head
Wind rushing through my ears
Clouds surrounding my pupils
Dirt slowly burying my body
Nature is calling me home
And I've been so lost
Every path just a wrong turn
With a dead end
I can't battle with life anymore
So I decide to give up the fight
And let the earth swallow me
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