Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
s Dec 2015
This is the time of year when I decide to get my fat self into shape.
I am so sick of repeating this pattern over and over.
I just crave consistency
I hate myself
s Dec 2015
I am a nervous person
I am scared of failure
Yet I tell myself that I fail every day
I am scared of success also
cause with success comes pressure
I hate being under pressure.
I want someone who can look at me and tell me to breathe
I want someone to hold me and tell me that it is going to be okay
I want someone who gets me
I just need a friend
a friend without an opinion
a friend who will just love me
It would be nice if this friend was a boy
It would be nice if we could jam out to music
It would be nice if he would go on adventures
I guess that I want a happily ever after
except happily ever after's don't happen to suicidal depressed girls.
I am just lonely and maybe its better that way
s Dec 2015
We are the field of flowers. Society, the weeds.
They have an unhealthy obsession with the flowers.
Prickly vines, ripping open the silk petals.
The teardrops dripping to the filthy dirt, slowly sinking further.
Flowers have this dry chalky taste from being smothered by the ground.
The bitter sweet sound from being simply buried.
Weeds want to smell the absence of breath in the stems.
The Plastics ruling their high school kingdom.
Decorated vines. Vultures, waiting for an innocent death.
Kicking us when we are already down.
So done
More and more billboards killing little girls.
“Sometimes you are putting more into it than you could ever get back out.”
The silent thunder of hatred.
The fake love shown by the weeds.
The plastics shrinking everyone to the size of flowers,
So they can tear them from their roots and put them in their hair.
Quiet Girl hiding away, terrified of peoples opinions.
Eventually Quiet Girl will be worn as an accessory in the Plastics hair.
The dark lightning of reality.
“You are like the missing word in sentence, pointless.”
Hakuna Matata,
Doesn’t exist.
The flowers scream. The weeds are too strong.
Little girls ***** fingernails scrambling to dig up their busted petals.
I found this poem I wrote last year. Its kind of a mess. But I like it.
s Nov 2015
Chill out
Take your meds
Don't worry
Just be normal
Stop stressing out
Talk to someone
You're not okay
You need help
Stop crying
Wake up you're an adult now
Why don't you want help
I want to help you.
Dear people who keep telling me this I honestly am so tired right now. I am trying to please too many people.
But I guess that's all I live for anymore
I live for other people.
So nevermind keep talking
Keep going
Cause I need it.
I'm so tired of this
s Nov 2015
I'm trying
I have called for help
I have kept going
Done everything they said to do
And none of its working
Its like I have a knife in my neck and people keep checking my legs to find the problem.
I don't know if that makes sense
I don't think I make sense.
Going to start taking meds again
It makes me more suicidal
But it makes my mom happy
Makes her feel like she is helping
Makes her feel like I am trying to be better
Mom I am trying
My head just hates me and I don't know how to make it stop
I've given up.
Idkidkidkventsesh
s Nov 2015
tonight the shadows smothered me
a sheet of black
I cant quite see the light through all the shadows
I try to get them off
but its too hard and tonight I am giving up
tonight I'm tired
tonight I just want to be done to be alone
I want someone to shine some light
except I don't
cause I find peace in shadows
which I know is twisted
but it is the truth.
I want to die.
Idk
Next page