I've got nobody to lean on.
People are on all the sides.
I am starting to feel like
I'm stranded on an island.
My world is breaking apart.
I am not in control of my ship.
I'm hauled towards icebergs.
This is not the life I'd wanted.
I've got a big smile on my face
Swallowing the raging storm in.
I hide these details of my silly life
Making it look perfect for all eyes.
I need to make a quick escape
Before I'm stranded here forever.

Your under my lips
But there not from my mouth
Yet u can place ur fingers
On my chin and tap lightly

You will never understand
The pain your words caused
It’s not alway physical
But mentally I’m distraught

Each word like a dagger
To my wounded heart
Wondering when it’ll end
As we’ve drifted so far apart

As I stand here alone
On the end of this bridge
Gathering my thoughts
Wondering what the future will bring?

This is the point of no return
I’ve done all that I can
No more suffering
Is this God’s plan?

I took a step back
Thought of the pain
I’ll be leaving behind
What will my loved ones gain?

Maybe one day we'd lay
Our exhausted heads
On each other's
Shoulders.

Home.

“She looks fine”
How many times have I heard this
Said with so much pride
They do say ignorance is bliss

“She looks fine”
My mind in constant battle
My heart aching
My personality ******* in shackles

“She looks fine”
No tears left to cry
No energy left to fight
Putting on fake smiles just to get by

“She looks fine”
Moving on, trying to forget
Taking control
No more regret

“She looks fine”
Reminiscing about the past
The pain came flooding back
Who knew that moment would be her last...

“She looked fine”

Lighting the candle at both ends
Watching the slow burn of the fuse
Waiting for the inevitable explosion
The one that blew our world apart
Leaving me seemingly lifeless
Hanging on by the ventricles of my heart
Shrapnel in every part of me
Attempting to inch my way
away from you
Without you noticing
Before you can stop me
With your empty promises
And never ending lies
That I fall for every time
Piecing myself together
And finding some solid ground
Learning how to move forward
From the destruction
in which I was starting to drown
Wondering
If we’re as toxic as everyone says
Or if upon introspection
We might be even worse
How do I sever these ties
Knowing that love is not enough
To save a sinking ship.

I don't know how it all first started

All I knew was you came like the sun in rainy days

Joyful, warm, delightful

But I was too in love with the rain

Even when you shined brightly


But you didn't give it all up

You stayed

You were always there, when I locked myself in the dark

What a senseless silly girl, I was

What an ignorant person I was


I never knew that stranger could make me smile this wide again

I never knew that stranger could make me laugh this much

I never knew that stranger could make me feel loved

I never knew that...

I would fell for that person who was a stranger to me


I once told myself

I promised myself not to involve your feeling into anyone or anything

But I guess I'm just fooling myself as the clock ticking

The more we talked, the deeper I fell for you

I couldn't help myself but to let myself fell

Hoping you would catch me


But, again, I forgot that someone said that falling is hurt

But I'm loving every minute of it

I enjoyed every pieces of my heart that had been shattered

Hoping that you would heal me



But, expectation is a cruel *******

You never get what you want

It only leads you to another brokenheart

So I stay here, with every pieces left, trying to build walls

And go back to my old self