You possessed the rare ability                                                          ­           to  encourage me to embrace my fragility                                                        ­ to help repair the cracks in me                                                               ­      with your love like kintsugi                                                         ­                        Hairline fractures filled with dusted gold                                               bringing  beauty back tenfold                                                          ­            every flaw an experience                                                       ­                                a reflection of my resilience

kindness rocks the foundations of hate
when love loves even your enemy
and you are charged to go do likewise

You watch me sleep like I belong to you.
Eyes in the dark, but your hands feel true.
You whisper sins behind locked doors—
I beg for less, you give me more. You're not here or there but your presence is everywhere. Like smoke in my lungs, you're choking the air.
Your shadow sleeps in my skin at night—
I flinch at the dark, but crave the bite. You're somewhere in the woods looking at me, every night at three thirty three.
I hear your boots on the bedroom floor,
But I never see you close the door.
Your breath wraps around my neck like prayer,
Holy and cruel — and I still don’t care. Take what you want, just don’t set me free,
Break me apart where no one can see.
I’m not scared of the dark — I’m scared of the light,
'Cause only in shadows, you treat me right.
You are the ghost I ache to keep,
Haunting my hell, tucked into my sleep. Your name is carved between my thighs,
A secret shrine no prayer denies.
You pull me close like I’m your sin,
And beg to burn just to breathe me in.
You come in the dark, leave before the light,
A name I don't know, but a touch I can't fight.
You're nowhere by day, but I feel your stare,
My skin remembers what the moon won’t share.
A ghost with hands that make me bloom—
You love me in silence, then vanish like perfume.
I don’t know your name, but you know my soul— And every night, you make me whole.

echo me close to your silence
trace me near to your sighs
soften me with your edges
and fall me into your eyes (could this be real, so real, so real)

melt me into your yearning
blur me into your need
where walls become like water
and this broken begins to heal (could this be real, so real, so real)

and fall me into your eyes, your eyes, your eyes.
almost alive, alive

color me with your whispers
paint me almost your dawn
where going is no longer coming
and leaving's almost gone (could this be real, so real, so real)

dance me through your defenses
float me through to your pain
pour me through your edges
till stone turns soft as rain (could this be real, so real, so real)

melt me into your yearning
blur me into your need
where distance becomes surrender
and stone begins to feel (could this be real, so real, so real)

and fall me into your eyes, your eyes, your eyes.
almost alive (could this be real, so real, so real)

stone walls falling
still morning breaking through
every step forward
almost into you (could this be real, so real, so real)

and fall me into your eyes, your eyes, your eyes. almost alive (could this be real, so real, so real)…
     and fall me into your eyes, your eyes, your eyes. almost alive…
          let's dance, let's dance, let's dance me into your eyes,
              your eyes, your eyes…
                   forever spinning into your eyes, your eyes, your eyes…
                       i'm almost alive, alive, almost alive…
                          i'm almost alive, alive, almost alive…