I want to know what eros is like.
Not just philia or storge but eros.
To be vulnerable with someone and to give them your all,
And to receive the title of “partner” instead of doing the actions without the reward.

I’ve felt this love before.
Yet I was not their partner or the one they clung too.
And even now that our paths have crossed,
Our love, I have not been able to undo.

Still, when I look back at this love I am not reminiscing.
For this love was not healthy,
And it had limits.
This love poisoned us both.

So why is my eros poisoned?
Why has my gift arrived broken?
Can it be pieced together?
Or do I have to learn to live with it, unspoken?

How come I am successful in finding storge?
I have found philia.
I even found eros, but without the agape gifted from above.
So, I’m lleft a broken person with a broken meaning of love.

So now everything I love is a bit off.
Or my way of loving it is wrong.
Now I question what is good.
And now I don’t trust at all.

I do not put myself out there to receive.
And I do not intend on giving.
For I am now closed off from all love,
Eros, philia, storge, all included.

I resent what could’ve been,
And resent what has become.
I do not welcome change,
For I am done.

I know what eros is like.
But I have not received it officially.
I know what actions are required,
But I am not an official recipient.

Don't fall for it!
The needy were never abandoned.
Or, "God is good"
Reckless faith got me here
An abomination
Conflating two different realities
Crafting an argument as if they were synonyms and yet,

There is something to that.
Some impossibility, deep down beneath everything
That drives not just Satan but God himself into wrath
And perhaps
Both are capable of both
And mercy says unto herself,
"Oh, get a room!"
And dies, resting on her inverted pedestal,
Blessed be her name.

because I want someone
to hear my thoughts,
not my words
and I want someone to see my soul
not me
filled with shame
to myself

come back
I’ll be by the car

you looked very nice and comfy * blowing kisses ur way :)

my new car is teaching me to be a better driver
it tells me when to speed up
or slow down
it tells me when to stay in line
or get off
it keeps me safe and
always gets me there
whether I take the scenic route
or want to get there as fast as possible

my new car keeps me safe
and always makes me wear my seat belt

I think my car is my new fantasy man