you won't even look at me in school, but when I show up unannounced on Sunday mornings with smoothies, your mom welcomes me in, you descend the stairs with your graceful, conservative foxtrot of a gait. you hug me hello and we laugh about things like normal people. your dad comes in from the yard work to say hello to me, ask me where I'm headed to college. everything is the way it should be but you won't even look at me in school.