I wish I could reach into your chest
And claw your heart out
I wish I could bleed you dry of tears
I took three days to run out

I wish I was as cruel as you when your smile
Became the reason for mine
I wish for a second, for a while
You weren’t stuck in my mind

I wish when I plunged the knife in
With words to sever everything we were
With the goal to hurt, to make you feel
That I wasn’t the one to shatter

I wish when you begged for me to stay
That I was the only one
I wish you weren’t finally honest when I asked
If there was another woman

I wish, I wish
You were hurt the way I was
But **** I couldn’t ever wish that
When your hurt was my pain, you trash

Sometimes my unshed tears form an ocean
                Trapped inside my chest
Drowning with dry eyes
                 I slowly sunk
When breathing is navigating
The stormy seven seas
                Cry to clear the storm
                Weep to better breathe
If it helps
                Weep and weep

Perhaps I’ll never love
The way I read books
That all consuming
Maddening
“You are my life now”
Kind of true love

Maybe I’ll never fall
The way I listen to music
The way you become
So lost in a song
You feel what you hear
You believe without seeing

Sometimes it’s a steady ticking
Constantly worrying
Never actually caring
“You’re young you’ll find someone”
Plus every other versions of this saying

Other times it’s a storm
This tsunami of doubt washing out
Every last bit of hope
Like water, instead of making it float
It’s sinking the boat
If you’re never really lucky generally
When it comes to love
Why the flippity flop would you be?

She gave off a blinding light
He stood amazed by her sight
As the dark swallowed the night
To him she shone, ‘twas a fright

With her brilliance she walked free
As though not hearing him plea
To him her gaze rest and see
Heartache, if she let him be

Though he hasn’t got a clue
What she thinks out of the blue
The spark igniting her true
Was him, though he never knew