some nights I cry
others I shake
more often then so I yearn
I yearn to feel to for I only exist these days wandering through life admiring strange faces and emotions I once felt myself but I crossed paths with the devil who took any life I had left within me now he watches amused at the life he's subjected my soul too a life of forced emotion and smiles a life of laughter drowned out by reality

I look at you and I see the world
I see pain that changed you
Emotions that drowned you
The faces that came and went
The promises that were broken
Disappointment that became the norm,
The nights that broke you and the people who left you empty inside
But I also see hope for humanity
Feel the love within your heart
Hear the warmth in your voice
The world is dark but I see the light in you
keep shining even when it gets dimmed

Pain never goes away.
We just become a little more numb
Tears only await to return.
They await for us to be broken again
Then to get up just to be broken again.

I am not impressed by much yet fascinated quite often. I care for a lot but I also hardly ever care for much. I am not heart less, I feel everything deeply but I do not feel as much as I should. Sometimes I live and other days I exist. Some nights I want to party and others my bed is enough for me. Some days I feel like Prada and other days I don’t care for brands at all. Some nights I yearn for human affection but still I do not invest my time in anyone because most people simply just have potential that never amounts and leaves me disappointed.I am genuinely always happy yet my heart aches often. I am complex yet the simplest human being you’ll ever come across.

Contemplate life and it's painful experiences how every tear , heart break, disappointment has created the person you've become. Optimistic with pessimistic tendencies. People will leave you empty then ask for more. Kindness taken for granted with no sub conscious present of how ungrateful they've become to your kindness