How can I not be good enough
If I am what you made me
I am but a shadow of the person I was
That's because you morphed me into a monster
Frankenstein I am your creation
Thought to be the subject of your adoration
And yet I see no salvation no satisfaction in your eyes
They are filled to the brim with lies and deceit
As I rise to my feet
Curious glances surround me but none is yours
Weren't you meant to lead me ? Guide me into the depth of your heart
Instead you turn around to depart
In the arms of another
As I stand unable to walk, unable to talk
A torturous smile across my face
Ripping the seams of my mouth,
I can feel the thread loosening
Slowly crumbling to match my shattered soul
You said if we joined I would be whole
And yet you left, night crept in silently after
And the world around me turned dark
For years I stumbled in the direction of your ever fading heart beat
As my body started to become obsolete
I waved goodbye to your cowardly face
And departed into the abyss
Happy in the midst of those who love me for my soul.
And think that I am already whole.

we knew it all
but when it all turned to ash
we were left empty
A blank page
we knew  nothing at all

I woke up in the middle of the night screaming your name
But you were gone
I was to blame
My daemons were stronger than yours
The longer you held your ground
The more deafening was the crackling sound
Of your broken heart
No matter how many times Id start to say I´m sorry
I knew it was best when you closed our front door
As I crashed to the floor
My daemons screamed with delight
Oh what an incredible fright
Now every time at 5 am
I wake up screaming your name
and I am to blame

What is our generation but a burning out cigarette
Half lit in the dark
our only lighter is the fainting spark in our hearts
Parts of our body degrading
Yet some how, something is preventing us from fading away
No matter how many times I plead
The notion of love wouldnt stay
A pastor from a foreign religion told me to pray
I couldn't say that the holiness has long left me
The sweet sensations of sin now caress me
I travelled through the twisted land of my own cravings
seeing painting of others
Brothers who died fighting, Mothers who tried to raise their kids
and here I am staring straight into the abyss of my own mind
trying to find some sort of bliss that will bring peace
Yet I have no shrine to kneel down to
No prophet to follow
I feel hollow, As I light my cigarette
With the fading spark of hope in my heart.

We live for one moment
And I would give up that moment for you
My brother, have I forsaken you
Have I deserved the terror of your neglect
Do I have no affect on you

Perhaps I am too weak to see hatred
For what I seek is love
A penetrating feeling of searing pain
Where only those involved have something to gain

And yet here I lie
As a broken kite, undignified
Unsatisfied by petty answers
I look up and see chaos
In your eyes laced with pathos I see regret

But the sky is blue
And my tears are clear, untainted
I am pure, though my skin has been scorched
By an  ugly torch called jealousy

Your childhood sins have been pardoned
I have seen the void in your eyes as a void remains in my soul
Together we are a whole
You are forgiven, breath easy

For as long as the moon guides us at night
shielding us from terrible fright, and
The sun sheds its light, you know that
For you a thousand times over.

Trace my soul with your lips
Brush my cheek with your eyelashes
Whisper love in my ear as we fall into trance
This is our modern romance
4 am daemons inhibit us
They prohibit us from lying
We are tying iron naughts
Our minds and thoughts wander into distraught
And yet we are calm
So dead set on dreaming through the darkest hour
And so we do
Both quietly sighing words resembling *I love you

Sleepless nights
Somebody turn around
Starts a fight
He wonders if his demons
would shed some light on who he is supposed to be
An incognito face filled to the brim
with a mixture of shame and disgrace
No white silky lace to tie his
memories together
You will only find darkness here
"Enter if you dare" they said
And so she stepped in.
*An untainted soul into the mind of a savage.