That day I realized something obvious.
Something obvious but something I have neglected.
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I use distractions as ways to feel fine.
But reality hits you,
   it hits you hard.
You think you could get by easily
  but getting to the point of people asking why.
Why are you like this.
Why are you like that.
God, shut up.
I don't want to hear anymore.
I also ask myself why.
I didn't want to be like this. I never asked for gray clouds to cover the skies above me.
But, well, **** that. My mind's ****** up.
Heavens didn't like this either.
I'm not a failure but neither am I a success.
I lost my self in this loathing zone. Such a pity but ******* ******. Sigh.
God, I hate myself.

The time we finally got closer,
But how come our distance only came further?
The bitterness I feel about you,
  Why must you push me far?
I thought we finally had a bond that ties us by fate.
But misunderstandings and problems just get in our way.
I loved you for who you are.
But I guess knowing you wasn't enough.
Take me out of this void you created.
You're the reason for the pain I feel when I can't even explain it.

Feelings I kept locked.
Knowing they'll only hurt others,
But being oblivious to what love really is.
I hope to find whatever it is,
And that would be true love indeed.
Like a gentle touch of hands, the warmth of embraces,
Or the feeling of soft lips brought together.
I beg to know what my heart is beating for,
And why I feel so high without even doing anything.
Teach me ways to catch your heart
So that I can finally feel that hundred percent of your love.

My love has gone too far, too far.
His back can not be seen no more
And my eyes look beyond and see nothing.
The heart, it longs for this love.
Oh, love, my love, what have you done?

There are easy words.
There are difficult words.
But then again,
It's easy to spell love.

Love, L-O-V-E.
It's a simple four letter word.
But how come the definition isn't all that easy.
You know it's a feeling.
But we don't know how to explain that feeling.
Because it all depends on those who feel it.

The sound of music coming through
And all the thoughts that seems to be
I listen to every word
Happiness. Sadness. Anger.
All these emotions coming through

But sometimes there is no sound
No thoughts coming in
No anything at all
Just silence
Maybe that silence resembles loneliness
Or maybe sadness
Because hearing no sound just is another way of not bothering
'Cause everything already feels like a bother to you