What if I said
All of those things that have been stuck in my throat for months
Would it change you?
Would it change us?
Would you unravel into my arms
Like petals coming loose?
Would you see me for what I blankly am
and would be be how I always dreamed?
Probably not.
For I am too nervous and bound tight by convention.
And anyway, I don't know what goes on behind those deep brown eyes.
In that life of yours that I don't know about.

But tonight
You kissed my hands and for a second I thought
You saw me.
But then again
Maybe not.

How can you be so close to the centre of my axis
and I so far out from yours.
Surely out orbits would have collided by now?
I guess not.

Water falls
droplets dappling flesh
Pools gather where your skin soaks in.
My eyes dive in
I cling to your shores -
let go, and swim
inhaling in the waters of you.
I gulp,
but it is salty,
and stings my eyes
when I see.
My fingers run through each stream
searching for something to cleanse me
But all I find is weeds

the days seem long
and the nights longer
yet weeks fly by in blinks
of eyes too bleary to really see
paralysed by a fear of doing
dissatisfaction leaving me helpless
immobile
lost

Silence passes east between us
long flights and rough rides have taken it out of us.
We both gaze outward
legs just touching
both needing contact to stop from getting
lost in the green newness of it all
Arrival.
The heat dark and thick
bellies full of water like puppies we climb
onto beds and between sheets
fitting together like we always have done.

I drank the sea
No one was watching but me
The salt crystallised my bones
But the water made me free
Shells covered my lips and eyes
Seaweed lay as hair
And slid down throat
Sand layered like skin
Pages of a diary
Formed by waves on waves
I smelt of fish
And open air
I raged all over
Threw my spitting hands to the sun
Let it evaporate away my sins
I tossed my hair to the wind
And danced pebbles as my feet
I rolled with the tide
Tossed here and there
Fishermen tried to ****** parts of me
But I eluded them
Flowed ever faster to the shores
Picked men from rocks and threw them back
Sank deep and long
swam out again, to the deep
I rolled with whales
sifted krill through my teeth
tumbling currents rinsed my skin
Quick-silver flashing in my belly
coast to coast I roamed and rushed
and as the darkened tide turned,
I slipped out again to the deep
not content to walk when I could *swim

Make love to me in the half light of the early morning
Make love to me like you said you would
Make love to me like I'm the only thing your body needs
Make love to me like losing yourself in me is the only way to keep yourself sane
Make love to me as a prayer and a thanks and a love letter
Make love to me like my skin is healing and you're broken
Make love to me like in the last log in the water and you're drowning
Make love to me like I'm the last oxygen left
Make love to me like I make you smile because I do
And I love you
Make love to me like you love me the way I do you.