10-2-24   4:21pm

do you think about me
as much as I think about you

do you wonder about
those unanswered questions
or what could have been


do you think about
the night we met
and how we were talking about
the universe
or that time during dinner
you told me the wind
blew through my hair
at the perfect moment


where did I go wrong
or were you scared
did I say something wrong
did I do something wrong
I just want to know

I wish it didn't have to end like that

we weren't right for each other

I have to remind myself that
but I'm still sad
am I allowed to be?


I'll never see him again

10-3-24   1:24pm

you have so much to live for
you have so much to learn

where have you been?
you drifted far
but the things you love
still wait for you

life waits for you
like a branch on a tree
waits for a bluejay

10-4-24

i get to have you
stuck in my head
all day

lucky me
lucky me


like a record
on repeat
the ending scratches
it's repeating
your name
over and over


well guess what
I'm barging into
your favorite movie theater
and raining on your parade
ruining your favorite film
twisting the memory
of your favorite place
into your least favorite
it'll make you sick
to your stomach
to go back there
to go anywhere near there


lucky me
to have myself

poor you
poor poor
you

10-7-24   1:07pm

certain sounds
and certain movies
certain shows
with certain scents

you're engraved
in my memory


my heart still beats
so fast
when you come
to mind
it goes back in time
it remembers your touch
your smile
your kiss
your laugh
your passion
your eyes
those eyes
filled with wonder
and curiosity

you don't find many people
like that
few and far
in between



perhaps you're also thinking of me
as much as I am about you

maybe not

so many maybes
so many questions
left
unanswered

just to run into you
maybe you'll think it's fate

10-12-24

when do you stop crossing my mind
what day
what hour
what time

10-13-24

making mom a cup of coffee. wearing dad's t-shirts he gives me. listening. offering advice. falling asleep in my sister's bed next to her. "I'll drop you off at the airport." quality time. sharing a secret. "text me when you get home." paying for the bill. waiting by the door for my sister to come home from a first date.