Would it be so ideal
To have you back into my life again
Unfortunately I messed up on my part
Therefore I must deal with the consequences
No need for the smallest violin
That was done long ago
In the eye of the storm

you are now resting in peace
and i am left with shattered pieces
memories of stories told
of collected old coins you had let me play with
of fallen hairs you kept on a far corner of your cabinets
rush through blurry windows
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
your hands that used to be so warm
and always reaching for mine
are now cold and will fade over time
tonight I look at you
and see how your beauty remains
your grace reflects before the transparent glass
protecting you from physical pain
this maybe the last I will see of you ̶
closed eyes and shut lips
steady chest and sunken face
but I promise this is not how I am going to remember you
in my mind you are smiling
and telling stories with hands gesturing
you are beautiful, my serene love
i am watching you for the last time as it seems
good night, my dearest
and may you have sweet,
sweet dreams

Becoming myself
More and more every day
Everyday finding myself
In the sky
Trees
Grass
You

loving you
was like having heart burn
on the wrong side of my chest
and doing my best to pretend
that still I felt nothing
in all of the places where
you once touched me

neck
collarbone
the backside of my knees

you destroyed me from the inside out
with such delicacy
that at times
I convinced myself it wasn't even
happening

loving you was a disease
that I wish
I could remember having

but now
I simply
feel
nothing

Heart n soul minimal,
almost criminal,
Subliminal,
Sanity sought.
Green eyes thinking only of lies.
Thinking you are FOREVER denied.
That all you hear are lies.
It’s only you.
Where did TWO US the WE go.
You make me feel so low.
Green is my eyes.
Blue is your heart.
Will we end up apart?
Will love and life depart?