A love such as this is never valued till its gone
Too late when you have let me sit alone
to move on

Part of me should listen
wont take my own advice
I told you so from trees
their usually always right
I tried to purely give
without receiving much
Im weak
i cant
Go on without your touch
engulfed in your molasses
Your shiesty potent potion
hardens me in place
And drains me of emotion
nothing there to change
You do not want us to grow
ill take my bag of seeds
And find a place to sow

I wish you had to have joy
Like how you have to slap kids on the wrist

Like how the sun has to rise
Like how the clouds have to ****

I wish that people could see
How pretty ugly could be..

I wish that people would grow
And let love nurture their souls..

suppost to be easy..
Suppost to be fun..

At first its like love
is luring you in..

As if its a trap..
it doesn't make sense..

Why can't we love
but keep all our sense..

Our branches intertwined
My roots had touched with yours
Your leaves were oh so fresh
Your skin textured so course
The birds that grace your limbs
Are gorgeous as the source;
Of all my love..
Above the dirt a seed
Had fallen rightly placed
Beside me as i grew
Adjacent from your face
You rose taller than i
I caught up shortly after
Our minds now in the sky
Together watching planes
As all of them flow by..Oh my..
Why have you fallen down
With knowledge so profound
I cannot see the ground
I do not hear a sound
Or feel your lovely presence
I long to love you so
To be one with your essence..

Slowly it will die
one must take precaution
When letting someone slide
inside
They'll stab you
then tell you they are sorry
They wont remove the blade
their care is often shoddy

Apologies are insufficient medicine for wounds
hugs will not suffice in medicating toxic fumes  
Love is all i asked of you it seems it was too much
id rather be alone instead of longing for your touch
A crutch
a burden
A dream i couldn't grasp
true love is only seen with TV cast's..

My hands are mad ugly
My face is ok sometimes
My mouth often says rhymes
By the dozen..
or
More or less by the second
I don't talk to my cousins
My family is too far
I long to shine afar
and be the light that guides you
like slaves running away
Looking at the northern star
Never led astray
Unlike their ****** brothers
Who wanted them to die
Or plow dirt in the fields
Will you bow and yield?
or is your strength revealed?

Aiming for the stars
But cannot reach the trees
Trying to move mountains
But running from the bees
Tryna swim away
but i can't wade in water..
Tryna warn the sheep..
Before they all get slaughtered..

In the depths of your spine ;
chakras are aligned they'll awaken at a time
When you bout to lose your mind
its fine
I find im stuck in mazes all the time
the visions in my mind often lost as i am blind ;
Unrefined
losing track of all my time
Obtuse to the benign as a god i couldn't find..
stool ;
I find that i am looking like a fool
the confines of my shell which i returned had kept me cool..
But now
i realize to a god a shouldn't bow
Instead i built myself a pedestal and won't come down..

How do you cope with feeling dead inside ?
im unsure.

Everyone is looking to be whole..
Are we not beautifully broken ?

I am not a drug
for you
To use
abuse
Toss
sell
Ingest
or test
For her
maybe
Loved very greatly
until things were shakey and
I was left achey..
alone

On the days where your sun is dim and your moon is blinding..
Those times where hope is thin and your faith is dying..
Cherish the glimmer of the homie that is usually bright,
Rejoice in subtle peace where nations war in the night..
Eat from trees forbidden that you know to be wrong..
Gain the knowledge and the power to be free from the pen,
Gain the strength and the vitality to overextend..
Learn the pathways of the wolves and you will never be eaten,
Surround your hill with kings and you will never be beaten..
Stare into the sun and you will surely go blind..
Or maybe you'll see things differently than how their designed..
As if nature ever had anything to say..
As if people are zealously kind hearted today..
As if all nations stopped their bickering..
As if the senseless death aint sickening..
As if the money from the 1 percent is trickling...
Listening to the earth,
You hear a lot of tails.
Looking at the dirt,
There are endless blood trails..

Some flowers dance while some wilt and die, some dogs eat other dogs to survive. Success will hide from you like a spider that escaped. Clarity's legs open wide no restraint.

When your finally inside, success within your grasp because theres no place left to hide. Hands in the sky hold your pride for all to see, Success is in my grasp in the dark it called to me.

Washed away at sea,
Something had came to me.
As if a sign from god,
as if he spared the rod.
As if he did exist,
Although i did persist.
In hating his creations,
causing earths devastation..
Its nothing..
Mother nature bluffing.
Water tugging angrily above hell she would dangle me..
I know,
This feeling in the land.
The warming of the sun,
The bugs beneath the sand.
I was spared today,
But still don't hear relay.
From heaven in the sky,
or hell beneath my eyes..

Did not wish to be another waste of space
adorned with your mind
Blessed with your face
growing up first not last malefactor
Wishing he could die not cry times after
you molded what i liked
You modeled role for me
you did things in the shade
As if i wouldn't see
Im happy when im high
Floating like the leaves
when winter is afoot
When carried by the breeze

A feeling from a crevice that you didn't know existed, the seed i planted resonated grew and then up lifted. It hungered so i watered it, quenched its thirst for food. You were the blazing sun that gave it light. I am soothed by your sight. Your love for me was crude, i exude no more fight. For the loss of your love meant the loss of my might...Sike^.^

Drowning in aesthetics
Les poision left you blind
I see the river streaming
Your thirst is used to bind
For all are born with curses
Those needs you satisfy
The food you eat is worthless
Always unsatisfied
I love living for nothing  
I wish i had no needs..
Unable to relate..
To acts of selfish greed..

Peanut butter
sadness and fruit
I once swore that i would use you as my ladder to truth
later days i felt decay so i would pray for my self
Hearing nothing returned
it would wayne on my health

I got caught
up
High in the sky ;
thinking you would join
I wallowed in my cries
whatever ;
Looking down i saw a river made
bottling the water hoping that my feelings fade

Tight ;
feeling thirsty during walks of life
drinking from the bottles till the day becomes the night

Your eyes make me realize i want you
Your lips make me wish that you cared
Your hairs smell has me ensnared
Enthralled in you to my despair

Open your eyes, Open your eyes..
Obvious lies..
Deceit
Repeat it again..
Grief will echo in the lands from inside of the pen,
No one has a limb to lend but they might try pretend
watch your friends, watch your friends..
Like they were your enemies..
many of us go through life concealed by false identity
Give Mlk a holiday when really he's their enemy.
Give a nation death then give it life then give it living fees..

Teaching you that villains came and actually saved the day..
Showing you a different face to beg for dreams and pray ..
Teaching you that money is a substance that is needed
Teaching you that marionettes are to be headed..

Its become obvious that the one percent is dominant
The wounds that bless our backs remind us of your evils prominence..
My sight fills me with fright as it is easily deceived
What is life when my brothers make me  wanna leave.
What is strength when these crutches hold me up so high.
What is truth when you can't detach it from the lies.
What is positivity with poison in the skys.
What is optimism when they do not head your cries..

Ill Breathe in every toxin
Ill worry about your thoughts
On the battlefield a fox
Running as if chased by cops
I drink from the mainstream
Like all the other sheep
Keep my belongings close
Without them i will weep

I only attack in a pack
Strength resides in numbers when individuals slack
Im accepting gradually..that
I myself intact
Embody immorality
It sinks into my sanity
Spreads throughout my veins
I know this isn't right
But i am so disgusting...

Sike ^.^

Ill exhale every toxin without breathing them in
Ill push your thoughts aside
And let mine fly like wind
A giant on the battlefield
Running as if chased by cops
Are the warriors below
claiming they could **** a man
who's toes matched their ego size
drinking from the stream thats main has never been
very wise

The FED would tell you other wise
Stuff your mind with advertisements, Faulty news, and other lies
Tell you things that they say are important while our brothers die
Setting up the world for richer classes to stay glorified

Goals in the sky
why
Why care
you put a blade square in my back
Why there ?
would rather you have stabbed
From where my eyes could see
why you run away ?
Why can i not see
why throw my heart toward you
Why care
why you lookin at me strange
Why stare
why snare..
When you said you'd rather be..
flying through the air
Instead of tied to me..

If the floor was change
it broke
I fell through
lotta things on my mind i wont tell you
Devils eat at me inside
my issues
Wide
open
Don't need to close the hole
i like the gusts of wind
Flying through my **s o u l.

Gazing at you from a window that i know you'll never find,
By the time you get here i will surely be blind.

Nobody knows the stupidity Ive seen, Brothers follow each other into ponds and drown in stream. Try to pull them out and they will ask why  won't you join them. I let go of their hands and watch stupidity destroy them.

Try to calm down, i always feel the drops of rain my back they slide down. Richer men placing fences round the high ground, taxing you for passing through exposing lies found.

No one is amazed, at least where i reside we often see right through the haze. Poison in the dirt where the dumber cattle graze, the shepherds ill intention working through his mental maze.

Wool over your eyes, some pull it off some choke some die. Watch your brothers struggle till they fumble and they fall, nobody wants to help unless they have a gain involved. Unless your soul is bright, if so i bet ill see it through the darkest of the night. illuminate the skys with your joy like the sun. Brothers unenlightened far from clarity they run.

I tried to change
i really tried to ****** change
I would be fleeing but my being has been ****** and chained ;
mad strange how your lover choose to do you
Words stab through you like the pins in the doll voodoo ;
tryna groove with some blades in your back ;
Is like - tryna sit with some **** in your crack..
He showed love to the almighty creator
in hopes he could cope nd be something much greater
Saw the signs later ;
when god hit a fade away
later days resulted in pain in some major ways..
He often waved to the sky
to say hi and bye to his brothers who had died...
We could learn from the leaves on the trees
cooperating with the breeze when its time to appease
Some days some lay in the dirt and decay
while you ***** about your coffee at the nearest cafe..

Too tired to create
too vigorous to die
My past lives itch when id rather sit or lye
my third opened wide when these devils came to haunt me
Federals amphetamines designed to keep you raunchy

Id like to be indifferent
alas im like the rest
Smile upon on my face
sorrow in my chest

A golden sky remaining far
intangible
Past experience who you are
failure making half the man
Slowly losing grains of sand
eating at my inner flesh
Mishaps that i wish i kept
tunneled down deep inside
Rotting in the winners eyes
hating all that isn't straight
Has you stuck inside the gate
open wide your eyes and ears
Say goodbye to all your fears
something far is something seen
Close enough if your serene
clouds would have me envy them
Flying close to heavens brim
if i had a wish to make
I would go to heavens gate
waving hands to all my friends
Devils hoping its pretend.

Dreams
surreal
Visions of a place
that permanently change
Expressions on my face

Drugs for the discomfort
a temporary joy
Though when it settles down
again i feel devoid

Hills and pretty skies
animals and trees
Are better company
than those surrounding me

Cyanide in seeds
he thought to pick a bunch
And blend them in a mix
to rise above the slump

Weakness comes with strength
darkness moves with light
My yin is missing yang
i lost my will to fight

Devour the greatest and you will become the greatest..right?

Born into the world
Fresh
No dogs to dogs to eat your flesh
Hope your parents love you lots of time they should invest
Unless they want the hatred of a young adolescent
To plant in the past only to blossom in the present
Extremely incandescent
Maybe
If you
Train your child a while
Raise their mind a new