Today it will be
different when I say
I'm tired
cause

I'm tired of standing back
when I know I
was born to stand out

I'm tired of waiting
for opportunity to knock
that's why I will be the one
to knock on opportunity's door

I'm tired of the grass being
greener in the other side
that's why I will plant on mine.

I'm tired of being better than yesterday
that's why I will be the best today

I'm tired of taking a step at a time
that's why I'm taking all the steps every time

I'm tired of having only Plan A
that's why I will have Plan B-Z
even 1,2,3.

cause I'm tired of being mediocre
when I can be best
of what I think I can do better

Depressed, Sad, Burdened, Anxious, Scared?
Yes, Im all of that and more
I dont think I will last
But with writing
I want to stay
In this world
Thats hard
to live in
But not hard
To fell in love with

Life in pour and flow
Pouring in fun
Flowing in tears
Everybody runs
Away from what they fear

Its scary you see
To be in my shoes that wouldnt
Even fit me
My heart beating so fast
And I dont think I will last
As I ran away from the demons
Who's always chasing me.

Let me name them
Myself and I
Yes those are my demons inside

Yet I always fret
Knowing I will not be free,
Free from being me

But still im ready
Even though its scary
And everything feels so eerie
For no one is better
Of being me

I have done what I can
And  I will just believe,
That believing
Is the only way
Of truly living

Cause its time to put my weight
On this scale
To be the one writing my own story
So I wont be sorry
Because I have carried
My demons into the end
and showed them to the world
That they are not scary

1ST STEP is to tell her you "LOVE" her
Take her to the SEA
and understand her depth
don't be afraid of the 1st step
  don't worry for love is cheap
its also a big leap
for love is priceless
and its also timeless
        
2ND is to take it slow
enjoy every moment
cherish it all the time
climb every MOUNTAIN
that both of you & her
will face and
"TRUST" that you both
will see the summit
Together.


3RD is to have
"FAITH"
and to remain
faithful
with each other
its time to take
flight
and to stay
in the SKIES
you and her
deserves the feeling of
cloud nine.

There's was a time
that 3 am is the best time
brain is all functioning
imagination is at its max
body is tired but not burnt out
writing became simple enough
that words are plenty
and unlimited
everything I write
is beautiful
yet simple
and
there was you and me
talking about life
laughing on how we ******* up
and telling each other
the people we lost
now it became a curse
cause every time
its three
all it reminded me
is
you and me
but don't get me wrong
though its a curse
its not the worst
that's why i'm here
at 3 am
once again
cause I miss you
sorry I didn't see the spark.
it was 3 am
when I started writing this
cause when its 3 am
it you who I see.

It might rain
on your happiest day

There will darkness
on your light

There will be monsters
inside the kindest people

In every war
there are battles you will
lose

when you are pushed
there will bruises
when your up

Your cuts will eventually
be scars

There is sadness
behind those smiles