I just want
to be loved the way
the moon holds the stars

I honestly am just really sad and hurt. Not the kind of hurt like you fall and scrape your knee on the cold cement. Not the kind of sad when you lay in bed silently sobbing, hoping it will end soon. I feel the kind of sad where the feeling is so much it's almost nothing. That I want to ball my eyes out and scream so bad but instead I blankly stare at the wall for hours on end. The hurt where I can feel my heart aching in my cheats so bad, I want to rip it out. I wish it all could just be over. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm done feeling this anymore.

No floats of clouds in the sky
No clouds gather in the eye
An endless sky of cobalt blue
Stretches in leisurely languor -
Threads of gossamer softly gleam
In moments that time has spun
Besides them, like the smiling marigolds -
I soak up the sun

This is where you'll find me now
Sitting in silence at the edge of our world
Alone but for this endless push and pull
Memories of you yearning me back to peace
Regrets spiralling me closer to that precipice

This is where you'll see me now
Further distant than I've been before
Naked save these trappings of life's  success
All so false, for what can ever be achieved?
Before that final bell has tolled

This is where you can reach me now
Forever longing for your faintest touch
Still burdened by these ties that bind
To a role, to a life, to a world so far removed
From the love and warmth that in you I find

So this is where you've left me now
You chose my heart but abandoned my soul
To wait in silence in hope for you once more
To find me, see me, reach me, to call for me
And for when you do, to once again, call me blue.