I always feared that the stars didn't align for us
but still words flowed between us,
letters floating through cyber space,
tinged with unspoken love.
Love we half-acknowledged.
Love that wouldn't be.

even a bee,
forgets and leaves,
even the most beautiful flower,
once it extracts
everything
from it.

See how walking through this graveyard,
All its appendages seem to light up and spring to life in your wake?

It is only an illusion.

She's dead,
And you are the only one who is really alive.
And you are married to yourself,
Forced to reconcile everything you've done with the gravity of nonessence.

you're stationed in my head,
what's outside? i never been.
living through a shattered screen,
speaking grey and blue, never green.
we're safe in here, don't ever leave.
i'll share my air so we can breathe.

she never
dreamed
of becoming
an angel

she
just wanted
to fly
and somehow

if
possible
touch the

         o      u
     l                d
c                         s

no, she
never dreamed
of going
nor entering
heaven
(she doesn't know if it even exists)

she
just wanted
to leave
the grounds
for a while
and see if
the fluctuations
are worth one's salt

-she's taking the biggest risk of her life

i miss you like a thunderstorm
raging over an empty sea.
i miss you like morning dew
hiding in the shade of flower petals.
i miss you like old photographs
stored in dusty boxes
in forgotten corners of the attic.

i miss you like twilight
skipping quickly from dusk to evening.
i miss you like the swig of coffee
lingering, unloved, at the bottom of the mug.
i miss you like family movies,
glitchy home-videos Mom takes out
to soothe the passing tides of anxiety.

i miss you like lyrics
to a song i haven’t heard since i was fifteen.
i miss you like lemonade stands
in the midst of Florida summers, hot and sticky.
i miss you like the space suspended
between two seconds, trapped in a gap
to which i return infinitely.

We chase sunsets
                 not
                   realizing
that they never really fade.


It is us that sets,
             as it moves on.