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Dec 2018 kaela

eileen

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                                                   ᵤntᵢl my
lₑgs bᵣₑₐk

          bₑfₒᵣₑ my ₑyₑs clₒsₑ


                                                                                      blₑₑdᵢng nₒsₑ

            until
             I break myself
                 for trying my hardest

Dec 2018 kaela

Imagine

Dec 2018 kaela

pluto

Imagine

I
Imagine giving life
to what consumes yours,
reviving the pain
that caused devastating wars.

II
Imagine fixing
what tears you to pieces,
remembering the broken
and lying kisses.

III
Imagine destroying
what completes youㅡ
what makes you whole
yet poisons you from the inside.

IV
Imagine killing
what makes you alive.
burn old memories, tear old letters,
forget people and, maybe, survive.

V
Bury it all.
Erase it all.
Leave what you treasure the most.
Destroy what holds your shattered soul together.

VI
Can you break away
from what binds you to home?
Can you let go
of what you hold on to?

VII
No, you can't.
Because it is in this pain
that you found home.

"Imagine" he began, "and do not forget that it is only a figment of your imagination"

#sadness #freedom #movingon #life #love #newbeginnings #relationship #pain #friendship #givingup

Dec 2018 kaela

Suicide

Dec 2018 kaela

Storm Raven

Suicide

You think I romanticise suicide?
That I can find glory in death?

You're wrong.

I don't hope for romance, there is no romance in laying six feet deep.

Being defeated by your own mind holds no glory, there is no pride in suicide.

You say...
Get over it.
You can fight this.
It's only in your mind.

And you're right.

It's only im my mind so stop telling me how I feel.

So shut up.

I know it's weak.
Selfish... but it is my choice.
I know you think it's a choice to be happy.
If it was did you really think I would choose this?

sadness
pain
depression

Suicide

Trying to write a goodbye.
Wondering about the music for my funeral.

Suicide

I'm always scared but fighting.
I am weak but never giving up.
Never giving in.

I don't think this is fun.
This is suicide your talking about.
No romance.

Empty of joy and glory.
Suicide.
A way out.

#suicide #depression #suicidal

Dec 2018 kaela

Existentialism

Dec 2018 kaela

eileen

Existentialism

Why must the people around me
view me with no depth
I feel hollow
a two-dimensional being
living in the wrong plane
I feel no gravity
my face has no expression
my words have no meaning

Why must people
disregard
my feelings
my life

Am I real?
I wonder
if I am a piece of paper

I stand inside
indefinite grounds

I live in a black and white
world

my color stripped away

leaving me
in a realm
of all year long
winter reign

Dec 2018 kaela

Let the words come

Dec 2018 kaela

Philipa James

Let the words come

If only for today

I'd love to hear you say

The words that mean so much

Loving ones that touch

My soul aches to hear spoken words so true

Please let the words come through

#love

Dec 2018 kaela

A Reverse Poem

Dec 2018 kaela

Ariana Bagley

A Reverse Poem

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.

— The End —