I thought maybe, if I was helpless, a little broken and lost
that someone would notice, care, and try to put me back together
I was stupid to think that
I am worthless, scarred up and alone
no one wants to help me
no one wants to put little ole me back together
I was wrong
I blame the movies, for making it seem like that's how life worked
I blame the romance books, for making guys out to be wonderful, beautiful creatures who loved more than just your body, and wanted you to be whole and happy with them
so I thought, when you showed up, that if I opened up
little by little
you'd care, you'd want to help put back he pieces
make me whole
but I was wrong, so now I know
and now I'm a little more broken
a little more lost
a little more confused
but most of all
a little less trusting
I don't believe love can fix me
not anymore
that's child's play honey
so I'll stay alone
I'll stay broken
until I can put myself whole
with my tape and my glue
my needle and thread
I'll be whole again, with no help at all
I'll be whole, but I won't believe in love
I'll be whole
eventually
but I won't believe in love, I refuse

What was I expecting?
That you suddenly knew how to handle me at my worst?
That you suddenly were able to tell when I was feeling depressed and that you'd be able to cheer me up?
I knew I shouldn't have expected anything, but I thought you cared...
how stupid of me, I know no one cares, but I hoped that you did
how can anyone make me better, I'm stuck, all by myself
you said you would be there for me, I should've known better
when you said you'd be there, you meant when it was convenient for you
I'm sorry, this is all my fault
I'll just say here, staring at my wall, numb
my mind drifting off to all the failures of my past and all the horrible futures of tomorrow.

I run, hide, and disappear
you stay, fight and rule

Don't think I can run?
Don't think I fit the image?
Don't think I can fight?
Don't think I can be happy without you?
watch me
I can run, maybe not as fast as you, but I can run.
watch me
I fit my image. Who cares what you think? Oh wait, nobody thats right
watch me
I can defend myself, and I may not cause damage, but I refuse to let you do damage, so
watch me
I'm happy now, Look I'm laughing and smiling and radiant, all without you, so
watch me
I can do anything
I am not invincible, and I do break, but
I am strong
so go ahead, put obstacles my way and
watch me get past them

It's how slowly the darkness takes over that I think is why no one notices
It's little small things I stop doing over a period of weeks that it somehow becomes an integrated part of me. That's why they don't notice my blank state, my sad tired lifeless eyes, my unwillingness to participate in conversation. If it all happened at once that's a different story, that's when people notice. This is why when I break down, it goes unnoticed. Even by me.