I remember how you used to look at me
with a smile on your lips
and your eyes lit up
...
I remember how you used to hug me
tightly, your arms wrapped around me
so warm were your arms
so inviting your scent
....
I remember how we used to talk
everyday, non-stop
for hours and hours about everything and nothing
you were my best friend
.....
I remember how we kissed
the warmth of your lips pressed against mine
how I knew exactly what to do, what to say, to get you to want to kiss me
....
I miss you, but we can't be that close anymore
you claim I was too mean, maybe you just lost interest in me
Why would I be mean to the one who was mine?
but that was months ago, now
You're moving away, and I was mean today to you to mask my pain
I don't want you to leave, but I can't stand the thought of you with anyone else
.....
I  thought I got over you months ago, and yet your on my mind
I guess I just remember too much
maybe I should forget

I run, hide, and disappear
you stay, fight and rule

I'm stuck in a place that never changes
never changes, never evolves, never ending
ending would mean different
different would mean change
change would be scary
scary would be brave
brave and exciting
exciting and new
new like a beginning
beginning like a story
a story of never ending adventure
never ending adventure would mean going
going means soon to be gone
gone from this place
this place that never changes
never changes, dang I wanna do something new.

I'm alone in a room full of people
While everyone laughs, all I think about is how I don't belong
When I talk to you, like really talk to you, just you, I'm fine
everything's dandy, in fact, its the only version of me that's worth being
I wonder how you do it, how you make me feel like i'm worth it
I guess that's what best friends are for
Talking to you makes me feel special
so thank you
thank you for putting up with me
thank you for helping me
thank you for talking to me
thank you for being you

Food tastes like poison on my lips
my features look distorted, like in one of those carnival mirrors
I eat, to keep my parents happy, but while I eat I can't help but hate myself
My energy is drained, all I want to do is sleep
I can't think straight, I don't want to do anything
I don't want to talk to people, go anywhere, just sleep
sleep in my warm, loving bed and not deal with anything
I anger my parents, or rather I guess it's worry
they see me disappearing once more behind my mask
worrying I'm just making myself worse
I don't mean to, if I am, I'm just not hungry, I'm just tired, I'm fine
I have to be fine...

if you love something let it go, if it comes back it is yours forever, if it doesn't it was never yours to begin with
funny, how that works huh.
I wonder if this applies to people, because you let me go, and I came running back, I guess that means I'm yours forever right?
but when I let you go, you disappeared, never to be seen again....
so let me get  this straight *******, I'm yours forever and you were never mine to begin with? Ha what a cruel joke to play.
No you know what I'm changing this game
*If you love someone, keep fighting for them, love them how they deserve to be loved and if you don't love someone don't pretend you do