Would anyone really care,
If I vanished without a trace?
If my screams echoed the hallways,
If briny tears stained my face?

Everyone is bonded so strongly,
How can I join these ties?
Will I always be an outsider,
Seen as nothing more than a fly?

What am I doing wrong?
Can you help me understand?
Do I not deserve your kinships,
What’s wrong with who I am?

*I want for someone to care,
To catch me if I fall.
Because if no one cares about you,
Do you exist at all?

You my dear are my
Beautiful Distaster
Your beauty bounds me
But you are a tornado through my soul

That arrow on the compass 
Says I'm too lost
To be found
As I wander
all I want 
Is to drown

I lied
I told them to be happy
When I most certainly was not
I told them that things always get better
When I doubt they ever will
I told them to always have hope
When I lost all mine
I told them everyone is beautiful
When I feel ugly all the time
I told them to always stay strong
When I'm slowly breaking as days go by