i wonder if anyone would miss me if i left

I’m standing at 29th and park
wrapped up in someone else arms
only a month we’ve been apart
trying to be happier since you

he takes me out to all the bars
I avoid the places we called ours
I’m smiling but inside I’m torn apart
I’m not happier since you

my heart feels heavy again
i don’t know if i can carry it alone again
i don’t think i want to carry it alone again

i’ll just carry it alone again.

empty bottles everywhere
awkward glances and longing stares
you’ve caught my eye, i can’t look away
makes me want to know your name


but i carry on sipping my drink
and try to dance with the music in sync
desperately trying to look cool
and pretending I haven’t noticed you

everything hurts
my head, my heart, my lungs
because everything i thought,
everything i felt,
every breath i took,
started with you.

and somehow, it still ends with you.

i used to sit on the staircase and listen to the fighting, the yelling, the blaming

i used to pray that they could find happiness

so when they decided, i said to myself that it’s better this way

but suddenly my whole life was packed in boxes and i had two rooms in two different houses with two parents who fell out of love

i don’t know if what i felt for you was love,

but it doesn’t really matter anymore.

you didn’t feel it,

so i’ll pretend i didn’t either.