there is nothing i want more
for someone to love me: when i'm angry
when i'm crying
when i'm annoying
when i'm quiet

for someone to make me feel like i'm worth it
like, i deserve to be alive
i deserve to be cared for and appreciated
i just want unconditional love
that is my dream, my goal
to find someone who will love me
when i cant love myself

Mesmerized
I look into your eyes
A cold wind
as we begin
our journey
t'ward
Eternity
My hand waiting for yours
The stars, they soar.
We float above houses, fields,
We stand on mountains,
We drink from fountains.

My eyes open,
The token of your love
In my left hand, a ring,
The future it promised to bring
Once more,
I am alone
I no longer own
This moment
The leaves they dance
As our romance
Leaves behind morsels
A shell remains
Engulfed in flames of self blame
I take the plunge.
And I walk,
I move my feet,
I eat,
our memories and plans
Your final goodbye
Your wants, demands.
The marching band drums
Beat in time with my tortured soul,
We were supposed to grow old.
I pick up the fork,
Force down that which remains.
I devour guilt,
Upon the foundations we built
Of strength.
Worlds at a time,
I combine,
Mine and yours,
Unopened doors.
The house we never furnished,
The walk we never took
The book that was never written,.
Our story, unfinished,
Your life diminished.

I sit, take a sip, of my tea,
It doesn't taste the same
The razors don't take away the pain
Of hearing your name.

we live in a time where its really hard to trust someone
and love is no more real like it used to be
and that hurts, it hurts a lot
to live in a ******* fake time.

Your love is the dance in my heart
that keeps my blood moving.
It is the fluttering of a thousand
excited butterflies in my stomach.
The sparkle on the water at sunset
which rests in my eyes
when they fall on you.

While I'm with you
I could never be too hot or too cold.
Nothing is more just right.

It is a love even cinema envies.
The song you play for my soul
is the one that I could never
sing alone.