And it was wonderful.

It was magical.

It was power.

It was love.

But now I see

as I stand amidst my own ruins

that it was the stupidest thing

I could ever have done...

your a mystery,
that i can never understand.
you tell me you want to talk more,
then run off and ignore
you give me kisses and love,
then tell me that you dont want this
you want to stay single for a while
i get it
but what i dont understand is

(read forward, then backward, line by line)

I ran.
Not knowing what else to do
There was so much blood on my hands
It was mine
The kitchen knife
Caught in my chest
Guilt
Consumed by
Fear
I was heightened by
Adrenaline
But running on
Wasn’t enough
While trying to stay calm,
Losing control
It was me that would end up
Dead. Because
He was
In front of me
The whole time
It was too late
Trapped
I found myself
Locked in chains
My fate was
Death.

-Look!
You want to runaway?
-Yeah let's do it!


You want to?
-Yeah!


Let's do it then...
-Go!
Let's rock

A Smile Conceals The Tears Inside

Every day is the same old thing.
Seeing you with her makes my heart sting.
The way your eyes look at her with desire,
I feel as though my whole world is on fire.
I think it hurts so much to see,
Because that's how you used to look at me.
You told me you wished I could see how beautiful I am.
On those bad days where nothing makes me smile, you can.
You're funny and caring and sweet to me,
But lately it seems like it's only when you want to be.
Whenever she's around, acknowledging me comes to an end,
Even though you told me I'm your best friend.
I try to move on.
I want these feelings gone,
But when I'm with you I remember why
I love you because you're what I want in a guy.
I've never met anyone else like you.
Who sees the world the way I do?
Do you think your life would be better
If you thought maybe we were meant to be together?
But I don't think you will ever know,
So the time has come to let you go.
Some people just aren't meant to stay in our lives forever,
So I decided to write you this final letter.
I know that you will never reply
Because this is where I finally say goodbye.

The Promise
I love you.
Those three words didn't mean a thing.
I thought we were meant to be,
But I guess it was just a fling.
There's a wall around my heart, stopping me from crying,
But there's something inside of me
That feels like it's dying.
You were everything I needed, cared for.
I chose you, but now my heart is sore.
You will never realize that you were my best friend too,
But believe me when I say this,
I really did love you.