"Missing Him"
Day by day,
Miles apart,
I hold him close
In my heart.
My heart likes him here,
But my mind wants him to disappear.
So confused but so in love,
Looking at the stars above,
Remembering what we had,
And what could have been,
When we were in love,
And how we were friends.
He was like family to me,
I trusted him with all my heart,
But in a million pieces
He shattered it apart.
I only asked for one more chance,
Just to get it right,
But he turned me away,
And bid me good night.
Now these tears are here to stay,
Streaming down my face,
Wondering why he would turn me away,
And now we don't talk anymore.
That's so true,
So why am I still in love with you?

little johnny was a poor sad thing
his father was a prideful brute
when johnny slumped his shoulders
his father tied the golden wire around his arms
and held him up high
when johnny dropped his head
his father tied the wire the strands of johnny’s thinning hair
and held him up high
when johnny’s eyes filled with tears
his father glued his eyelids shut
when johnny frowned and shouted
shouted for help because he didn’t feel alright
his father stitched johnny’s mouth closed into a permanent smiled
but no matter what johnny’s father did,
johnny just didn’t have the will to live

the giggles of a child haunt me
fill up my lungs and throat with guilt
forcing me to choke as i watch her
i’d rather gouge out my eyes then see her sweet smile taunt me
she irritates me with her cluelessness
she’s young and stupid
when i warn her of the demons coming her way
she skips right through me
im unknown to her
but i know everything about her
i know all her thoughts
all her hobbies
i’ve thought every thought she has
i’ve played every game she has
i’ve sat in every classroom she has
i’ve prayed for the same wishes she has
i was fed the same lies she was
if only i could warn her
tell her i’m sorry
that i’m not what she imagined she would be when she gets older
if only i could have warned me

"Unbreakable"
Times like this, I wish I never existed
Nobody wants to listen
I'm screaming out for help
Times like this, I wish that I could let go
And open up a window, free to be myself
But then there's you
Standing over me, tryna make a fool of me
Tryna get the best of me
Oh, then there's you
Tryna shut me out, tryna kick me when I'm down
That ain't gonna stop me now, no
How does it feel to know that I don't care at all?
Your words don't mean a thing at all
I chose to rise, you chose to fall
How does it feel to know that I am capable?
Of more than you will ever know
Don't tell me I'm not good enough
Don't you bring me down
I'm moving up and you're over now
You gave me fire
Everytime you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won't knock me down
No more, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Oho, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Times like this, I'm picking up the pieces
I'm making up the reasons
Not to tell a soul
Times like this, I'd rather speak to no one
I just wanna move on, stand up on my own
But then there's you
Standing over me, tryna make a fool of me
Tryna get the best of me
Oh, then there's you
Tryna shut me out, tryna kick me when I'm down
That ain't gonna stop me now, no
How does it feel to know that I don't care at all?
Your words don't mean a thing at all
I chose to rise, you chose to fall
How does it feel to know that I am capable?
Of more than you will ever know
Don't tell me I'm not good enough
Don't you bring me down
I'm moving up and you're over now
You gave me fire
Everytime you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won't knock me down
No more, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Oho, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
I remember getting tease as a kid
Cause at the place that we lived
We never had it easy, believe me
But that don't excuse the things that we did
Wouldn't accept that I was never accepted
Shed so many tears like I fell in depression
But if I changed, I wouldn't get called names
But it was all the same, I was feeling rejected
Putting someone down that's a low blow
What goes around comes around like a yoyo
Wish that I could stop time like a photo
But we stand strong, bounce back like a pogo
Don't tell me I'm not good enough
Don't you bring me down
I'm moving up and you're over now
You gave me fire
Everytime you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won't knock me down
No more, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Oho, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable

Mental Health
I saw the the clinical medicine of my generation destroyed,
How I mourned the psychopathology.
Are you upset by how nonsubjective it is?
Does it tear you apart to see the psychopathology so objective?

Diagnoses, however hard they try,
Will always be various.
Never forget the assorted and versatile diagnoses.

When I think of schizophrenics, I see an ill thinking.
Do schizophrenics make you shiver?
do they?

Just like a maternal ligament, is the epilepsy.
Down, down, down into the darkness of the epilepsy,
Gently it goes - the smaller, the brief, the runty.

Don't belive that the mental is cerebral?
the mental is emotional beyond belief.
Are you upset by how gushy it is?
Does it tear you apart to see the mental so bathetic?

The alcoholism is not physical!
the alcoholism is exceptionally psychological.
Does the alcoholism make you shiver?
does it?