Two Hours and I’m trying to put my immense feelings on papers..and i failed…
Looking at the picture that took my breath away….
Reading the spilled words, feelings were stolen from me and i was hypnotised…
Literary paralysed and shaken…
Literary living in the wold of spirituality that i left long time ago…
Literary i’m living in my exile ….
Literary I’m seen…
I saw her Completing her process, and everything in me holding me back from keeping the secret inside me….
Everything in me, get angry of my “Shy” and shut my “Shyness” off and said the truth that I saw her soul!!
The first fear was the tear i was about to see…
The first “Freak out” was the face turing to red!
The pain was to hurt someone i care about?
I saw all those things and i felt the pain inside me!
I’ve heard the voice saying inside me “Why you want to do it?”
                                               Then....
I told her “ I’m sorry” I can’t help it? and i should take it out…
I should tell her........
                                   You have been seen
                                          I Saw you!

I might be a stranger for you!
I might be a freak for you!
My words are a fountain of mystery!
My feelings are untouched! and they are looking for harbour to rest!
The core burning the soul, and leaving me doomed in nowhere!
I might be angry!
I might be resenting!
I've dismissed everything in my life, but I didn't dismissed you!
You paid your dues because of others, but I paid your!
Are we friends!.... can't see except that we are rivals and about what i'm not sure!  
I don't know what makes you scared of me!
Something died with you, and I won't fall in love with you again!
Did you hear a soul came back to body after death? I didn't!
I look back only to say.....
                                  Sorry
I have a path to take!
Pinky promise under the eyes of heaven made!
Later, I felt my only pinky finger was giving the pledge!
I can't see your there! and so.... I am
                                  Sorry

The whole universe can be embraced gently by my feelings ...
Broken Hearts are revived angelically through my breaths...
With happiness, feelings are fleeing from me through them and dwelling in their souls...
Reading a neglected papers...
Looking at those unknown writings...
Remembering all those moments from old memories...
From the PAST!
The only query raised, was....!!!!
Wasn't I unconsciously preparing myself for such transition!!!
Wasn't I growing older prior to my time to help my heart  to be more stronger!!
I'm unique by my Own!
I'm grounded among people!!!
My prayers are said in whispers.... To place order In chaos...
I'm labeled the Samurai!
I am with a mission of shedding light out of crap!
I'm mazen

Funny when I have those little talks inside my head!
Funny when my heart is talking to my head!
I can feel the chill in that talk with little pain twisting my heart!
"Can't you feel me!" ....
                     "Fate has another plans!"
"Can't I tell her how and what I Feel!"
                      "Are you crazy?"
"What the harm in doing so?"
                     "Are you welling to have another Slap!"
"It is better than burning inside!"
                     "It is better than being a joke! of something call love!"
" I can't live anymore in my own cell!"
                      "I know you won't tolerate another fall!"
"Why we do exist then?"
                      "To have those Little Talks:)"
"I won't talk to you"
                      "You have no one else dear Heart!"
"I hate you!"
                      "Welcome on board, I hate a lot of things in my world!"
"Why can't you talk!"
                       " I don't have someone to have those........
                                                Little Talks!"

I used to walk fast to reach the place...
I was not thinking of anything except the place...
I was not in love with Earth!
I was not in love with sky!
I was not in love with myself!
Yesterday, I've tried to walk slowly!
I failed to follow my Legs!
I realised I'm missing everything around me even my breath!
I've realised I've wasted every "Push" from God, from Nature even from my soul....
I've realised how many years of my life passed  not being noticed...
Years being slipped away without enjoying.....
                                            The Blesses...

Like a melody penetrating your soul...
Like a water stream cleaning your burdens...
Purifying your spirit from Rainy days...
Let you cry like a child, longing to sleep peacefully...
Like a flute of its own rhythm...
I didn't tell her that!.....
                                         But....
I kept hearing her voice!...
Trying to heal myself and unable to give her the credit...
                                I might be afraid! Afraid of...
Losing the privilege I gave myself without permission...
Not hearing her voice anymore...
                                         I'm sorry.......
                                It is not the voice only!
It is everything in her, even the face... even eyes have their own touch...
                                      Her Voice was the....
                                             Trigger!

Every day in the same corner...
Every day in the same coffee shop...
With the same Espresso and bottle of water...
Alone and no one on the other chair!
Headphone embracing my ears with "All along the watchtower" melody!
Violin screaming out for me to show what is hidden inside!
It is not the time! still there time to dwell in silence and listen to you!
When a Ronin rest, he heals the In before the Out!
He Listens to Messages from Heaven!
He Reads what Nature is giving!
Still there enough time to raise!
He still has that..... Hope!