Life chokes my neck
as I endlessly try to breathe.

Laid out in front of me
gasping for air
as hands apply pressure
and eyes coldly stare.
Grip tightening
eyes widening
knuckles whitening
Skin bruising
you're losing
your battle with me
You're struggling
Eyes bulging
pulse slowing
now knowing
that I'll be the last thing you see.

Am I anything at all
if I'm nothing to you?

I have deleted

As night descends upon my mind
I silently dream of you
And though the thoughts are rarely good
It is all I have left to do
The light is fast fading from my eyes
And the world around me spins
Yet, the one constant grounding force
Is you and all our sin
The ***, the lies, the bitter fights
The make-ups, the break-ups, the endless nights
These are the memories that will follow my broken heart
These are the memories that killed me.