i've been waiting.
"what for?"
for when i don't have to answer that question.
when i won't even be able to hear that question.
when i am too far away to hear any questions.
when, one day, i get in the car.
and then i drive.
i'll just close my eyes, and pick a direction.
and i'll keep driving.
i'll only stop when i meet the setting sun, and everything has an orange glow.
i'll stare into the light, and forget your name.
i'll throw my phone into the desert, and bury my memories along with it.
i'll count the stars and change my name
i'll shave my head and burn my possessions
i'll lose myself and become a mirage
i'll paint my skin with the sunrise's pink
i'll find a million different ways to love, and ways to say '"i love you"
i'll kiss a thousand lips, without having to hear them move once
i'll be a hundred different people, a hundred different stories
i'll be in the middle of nowhere, but i'll know where i am
and you'll say
"what ever happened to her? she's just...gone?"
but i won't have to answer that question.
i won't even be able to hear that question.

today, i am blue.
sometimes we need to be blue.
it's what makes us human.
it's what makes us poets.

among the things i cannot do
is somehow rid my mind of you
your smile creeps in, your eyes so blue
you mined straight through my skin

ASK ANYONE
                  when we met, i was a mess
                  i was hurting, i was unloved
                  i was scarred and bruised and left and used
ASK ANYONE
                  when we talked, my words found color
                  they became bright and jubilant
                  they became a whirlwind of paint
ASK ANYONE
                 i saw the best parts of myself in you
                 the universe was aligned
                 and fate shown its strong hand
ASK ANYONE
                 when we were over, i felt incomplete
                 like those best parts of me were walking away
                 and i was left, crumpled, angry
ASK ANYONE
                 time taught me how to smile
                 hurt taught me to have heart
                 you taught me of strength
ASK ANYONE
                 i cried at a stop light
                 why won't you let me go?

does he look at everyone like that
and if so
is that because
he sees the beauty in everyone