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My phone
she vibrates , it feels warm and soft like the hugs he gives me when he needs me the most, I wonder who it is?
My phone
she vibrates again, it feels relaxing like the gaze he gives to tell you it’s okay.. I wonder if it’s him?
My phone
she vibrates again and again, it feels cold like-
My phone
she rings , the sound is-
My phone
she screams and she yells
she tells me to stop
stop waiting, it isn’t good for you
waiting is for heartbreak
waiting only leads down a vague abyss in the ocean
you may know how to swim, but the weight of him will drown you
DOn’t wait , just go
Stop waiting by your phone
-Christine

I hated
I hated me
No, i loved to hate me
I hated black
I hated black clothes , made me feel hot , never embraced the heat it gave me
I hated the night, a cold harsh wind seeping into my skin
I hated the sun, I was afraid of it
I hated that they made me hate me
I let it consume me
Things are different now, though
My thoughts are stronger
My vision is clearer
My body feels lighter
My smile is brighter
I love my skin better than ever
The sky hugs my melanin, i feel vibrant
free, i feel one with it
different shades of black, so many to choose
so rich, tasteful, so strong
cocoa butter kisses so sweet with every touch
I’m in love with my skin and so is the sun

Brown Eyes
deep inside the piercing brown eyes
is a world that i would like to be mine
using them to see the clear blue sky above
the green grass that glows below
what is on the other side thats greener
who knows cause what I see is better
I can feel our bodies intertwining with each other
Is the universe telling us that we should be together
because we see eye to eye and our third one even stronger
I want you in my life and I can’t wait any longer

tell me that you miss me
tell me that you love me
cause so far all the words you've said
haven't made me happy
but yet I rather hear the words that sting
than nothing

Hope for us to see the light
Hope for us to see it shine
The brightness in-between our eyes
Imagination, the creation that flows within our veins
The one light in the rainbow that keeps us sane
Hope for my generation
Hope for us to see that we are the light
Brighter than sun
We are Indigo Children
Don’t keep us trapped
Just let us come out to play

We blazed and the memory after was so hazy
I unpaused the video and continued where we left off
And put visine in my eyes because of the irritation
I thought it would clear the path of what was to come
Back and forth of 20 questions left unanswered
Because it was overwhelming and the light was too bright
So you put on your all black shades to tame it and soon those 20 questions came down to 0
I left purgatory, not anymore caught in between the two
I repented my sins , my reward was you
Although it wasn't what I had wanted at first Beggars can't be choosers
I'm glad I get to have your body as much we want
I'm glad I get to have as many pills touch my tongue and put me in trans
I'm glad I get to have your cold breath give my neck goosebumps until I have to fade into the real world of drunken nights, pills, responsibilities , bills, cranky professors, being psychedelically in touch with nature, enjoying the breeze.