Focused
aimed
I'll keep going straight

Side blinded
no time to hate
cause if I let the thought slip for a second
I'll honestly throw all my energy to waste
cause you keep steering up my emotion
I might be exploding
And you might just have a taste

So I'm ganna keep focused
Determined
and going straight

Even though ur right there I'm ganna let it go before it begins let it go before it ends badly . I ain't human for now . I dunno how . But your effect will disappear

and I'mma keep going

All I do is define and analyse
everything everyone everytime .

define and analyse
label and paraphrase
like my life story is a *******
SAT study case.

Sweet eyes and a wavering soul
Was going uphill only to fall.

Always the girl to answer anyone's help call
but to her own troubles everyone stood in applaud.

Waiting for her bravery to unfold

but what they don't know
is what her eyes never told
she was on the edge
all along

see green land and blue skies
were never on her mind.

but, instead a complex maze she would always design
mischievously tricking her own mind.

She did it so that a way out was never to find
As she locked herself behind
her complex golden mind

And everyone just stood in applaud
cause they thought
her own bravery will unfold

oh they thought
She's strong enough
and her own bravery will unfold

but the truth is those sweet eyes
have gone cold .

All my feeling and emotions
have turned into thin paper
that you can easily cut

all what I'm going through means nothing
yet it means alot


I know I'm an open wound
but I keep ignoring it as it bleeds.

I can't tell you how much it's bleeding
if its right in front of you and you can't see.

and I don't want to depend on anything
to help it mend
to help it heal

So, I just ignore it
even though it's real

and now my thoughts have turned paper thin
cause I keep cutting down the trees
and remaking them.

Right now I just wanna move on
So being Paper thin
seems better than a growing tree

Does contempt exist ?        

If I left my love with you
Will you keep my emotions in a box
Hang it around your neck
Near your chest
And wear over it a bullet proof vest  

So I wouldn't need anyone but you
Keep them safe with you
Feeling the safety in my love for you

Is that cotempt   ?  

Knowing it will never end
Knowing that on you I can depend                     Knowing that my scars you will mend
Knowing that I can send
My heart safely with out it shooting back at me    
Will you reciprocate !

And I will wear you all over me
Like a metal vest
That will never rust    

Is that contempt ?

See I could tell you about the world
about the reasons we exist
And how we are living a lie
And what they show on the t.v screen
How wrong has been done to me
how much is on my mind
how I don't sleep at night


but the way you smile at me
is sweet .
And I all I can say is I have
a sweet tooth ♡