Lela - Hello Poetry

Lela Dec 2019

It makes me sick that you've made me write so many poems about you

And they're not even good
It's just expressing how mad I am at you

#angry #sad #love #pain

Lela Dec 2019

You're like a book

You're like a 1000 pages long book to me
And you won't even let me see what you keep
I want to open you up and study your feelings all day and all night
But I guess you're more like a diary
Or maybe that's what you want me to think
maybe you don't trust me enough
Maybe you don't want me to get scared and run

Please just let me see
I can be your next chapter that's not so mean
Maybe I can help you with your story
Please, don't even worry
Because, you see
I love reading And I'll keep your secrets in my private library

#books #secrets #love #feelings

Lela Dec 2019

She

I guess I'll never be okay
with the way you look at her
With the way you touch her skin
With the way she makes you feel
And it makes me sick inside
When I think that you'll never be mine
Because we both know it's true

But you're happy
And she makes you smile
And that's all I care about

I guess I'm happy for you

#love #pain #jealousy

Lela Dec 2019

I miss the way you Lied

You said that you cared
Guess that was a lie
So mad at myself for going back to the moment you told me you’re mine

#lies #care

Lela Dec 2019

Why do I do that

Why the **** do you keep hurting yourself?
You know the consequences, you know you’ll be in pain.
Why do you still crave that piece of happiness that will last less than a blink? I genuinely do not understand how someone can be so stupid.
So selfish! You only think about the present you, forgetting about the pain that your future self will feel.

I love hurting myself apparently

#love #pain

Lela Dec 2019

You love when I’m in pain

I guess I was okay when the pain felt good
I got used to getting used, used to getting choked
And you’ve changed the way I am
You taught me how to get used to the pain
And I hate to say
It feels awful, but I’m too scared to run away

It hurts to love you
But letting you go would hurt more

I dont even know

#love #pain #heartbreak #hurt #heart #idk