you cross my mind so often
i sit and watch you do it
no wonder i don't find my way to yours
i can't seem to move

my friend,
told me when I wasn't near him for 3 years,
he drugged a lot, and there was a time he saw himself in doorstep of hospital
my heart,
It stopped beating, I couldn't do anything about it,
what more surprising is that he told me that with his sparkling smile.
That smile which I couldn't get to see in those years.
I feel so bad
god
It's so painful
and it's just such a shame I can't caress his hair anymore.
And I cannot get across those words they mean so much that it's giving me an headaches.

Calm. Protection. Healing.

soul sorrow
    silence
         1

Every time I look down
The ink on my chest burns red
The taste of the shades of pink in your lips
Grabbing my hips
In selfless descendance

I can almost feel it
Your fingertips
In soulful bliss
I beg for it

Just passing time
    Tokyo trains
      Uniquities

We spoke today on the phone
It'll have to get me through

My son my son my son
How much I love you!