my friend,
told me when I wasn't near him for 3 years,
he drugged a lot, and there was a time he saw himself in doorstep of hospital
my heart,
It stopped beating, I couldn't do anything about it,
what more surprising is that he told me that with his sparkling smile.
That smile which I couldn't get to see in those years.
I feel so bad
god
It's so painful
and it's just such a shame I can't caress his hair anymore.
And I cannot get across those words they mean so much that it's giving me an headaches.