I’ve got your back
I’m always here
I care for you
And worry too much
I can’t help it
You’re my best friend

I muffle my heart
Fluttering at the thought of you
I keep it to myself
You know, but you don’t have to

I say goodnight every time
But never once a reply
Do you even read them?
I’m trying my best
But it isn’t enough

You know you’re my best friend
And I know I’m not yours
But don’t you worry
My feelings don’t matter
My heart survives the hurt
Still, I’m not giving up
Because I care
And you mean
Too much to me
To lose
Because my heart wants me
to hold on to you.

If I told you that you were the first one of 7
would you care?
If I told you that it took me months to recover,
would you care?
If I told you that I had panic attacks by the wrong touch,
would you care?
If I told you that I have nightmares about that night,
would you care?

No. You wouldn't.
But I hope you at least know that what you did,
I am reminded of every single week.
When somebody says your name,
when they bring up our past,
when I see a picture of you.

You haunt me.
You broke me.
And I am reminded of it too often.