I went while dark to see what stars might shine to me
but fireflies came close enchantingly
my vision needs be here not there
to see these fairy flitters, star fliers flashing green
pulsing out of time and space
to birth a startling burst of joy
a laugh so pure and fragile
an exhale, only, to begin
again to live in awe

Desert thirsts for you, for me
embodied living energy
above and underground
go find the water, find it deep
we think of death but only sleep
illusions losing ground
undulations resonate
a call to follow now

Pulled to kneeling
By assaults of worry.
I surrender.
Receive this blessing.
You are the power for yourself.
As I am mine.

Holy Grail
I drink from you
Faith beyond knowing

blurred non edges
directional lines now waver
melding with uncertainty
biding time, abiding self
in bog darkened depths
warily inviting what shall emerge

Inevitable movement
follows inscrutable pathways
within boundless unknown.
Admit any possibility with courage.
Of this I am sure :
Fear is no Wisdom path.

crested crag-spines rising
bones fierce of ancient dragons
calling out to Naga
~~~~~~~~~
Return
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Bloom  feminine essence, Flow !
Feed my ancient undulations
wearied now to hills
sighing down with last exhaled
memory of color
washed, washed,
baked by endless sun

these mountains
surround

bare bones rising
sharp subtle silent
stratified waves of color
crumble into gifts I can hold

your legs
strong, furred, angled against mine

your mountainness
impossibly I am held

owl call gliding over all
coyotes feeding yips and howls
all this expressed now I can sleep
but for jangling metal flagpole
careless winds that raise
my wariness of flags

You are
evolving mystery
exquisite vexing partner
exponential...
all potential
streams through you
and back through you returns

No matter the illusion
we dance with you

long arms flying
hands deftly slicing air
with voice a hearty volume
entranced by this world

how calm my sphere would be
without your sparking fire

reluctantly I thank you for
stimulation

I am author
you my poem, arisen,
my informant
fleshing truth
on this life  
epic without hero
no lie between the lines

Crescent moon
I am full with void
touching light

I drink wine
til I stumble
eat chocolate til I'm full
of anything but you

bound by blood
in  archetypal constraint
don't dismiss this power
but lovers meet now
baring teeth
soul to soul
forging truth
in present time
come what may

intending Walkabout
with personal creations all acrumble as we move
our long held sacred stories  shown untrue
but let us go
the dreaming muscle will sustain
beauty consciousness entrain
unknown need not submit to fears
the demons not to rule
with baggage left behind us
we can swing a freedom dance
lessons need not bear a whip
we may just ride creatorship
trust love to rise above the mask
and find we're worthy of no task
and suffering just may not after all
*be the chosen path

much I would say to you
but lacking courage I am sure
you will not  hear
so we remain apart
presumed safe
in stasis  
our loss

and at night
when we might take
or give comfort
we think instead of time and the morrow
feeling desire,  I know I am alive
but later, perhaps later

you were full
ready to spill
as was I
pouring into darkness

now half gone
moon and I
when you refill
shall I ?

leaves are fallen ~ open view to stars
So must I see
through loss

I come close, craving and cradling
when you sleep
half awake, your words sweet, edges blurred
Beloved.

    But awake  
your voice so loud
shakes my world
arms jabbing all akimbo
building what you fear
your words cannot transmit.

Beloved, go to sleep.

the dam breaks
this pressure
let it burst
dance with chaos
barriers be ******
strong erections crumble
surrendered to unknown

so many words
yet not enough
to breathe with scented wind
see colors and the space defined
in fractal symmetry
our footfalls on the path
this mind is full of pulsing me
with words push your way in
I flood and overflow
don't stop this
spilling where I am

words and color swirls and stains
creating folds in space
  portray perception
glimpsing now
as only
I can see
so paint it out
following curves
all  just a play for me

who is it now who loves me
who changes tune for every feast
of every new curve learned
who echoes deeply as I howl
responds to shimmies and the luster
sliding all along the rim
I like to think it's all of from him
but peering over edges I can see
who shines a light in darkness
It Is Me

Collapse
with intention to expand undefined
Unburden
with goal of freedom
Unwind.
Imagine loss   Consider joy
    Loose the grip   Soothe the mind
   Lose belief in loss

swore not to do this dance again
the rhythm matters more than words
we cannot catch don't even try
we're falling off the stage
the finches flew
the cat is fat
there's hunger before dawn
the rocky trail both wet and dry
just follow hollow laugh and cry

He says
I believe
I create
though phrases elude
just inhale this moment's aroma so fleeting
now detoured to no known path
dance then in freefall
the grounding unseen
*sounding wordless exhale

quite small, really
but open to depths
never closed since first shock
awareness being here
with no encoded response
from flesh dusted wild pulse
expressing just what is
open    as one   as all    is one
treasure
already manifest
uniquely not comfortable  
welcome  not  known
nowhere  to  hide  being  now

miss you dear
til you are near
then push, push away

walking hearts the long way
up mountains
down mud ice rock
carrying anima
and animal as needed
with intent sensitive agility
and brilliant sullen creation
beyond my comprehension
walking bliss walking
no where home
no lack
I hold the needs
as you walk free

wary of sharp edges
magnets north to north
        and south to south
              our weariness abides
           long the view through loves lens
               seduced by wisping innuendo
               cunningly untrue
                                         stubbornly we here remain
                                                           the spark to see us through

gone so long
fine memories line
your beauty face adored
paltry company by now
the made doll with her tight red smile
no secrets will divulge
pretty blue eyes held so wide
by violent stitches black
no blinking now and no excuse
the truth is all revealed
as the lie was all reviled
but once it was a simple sharing
blood along the line
mother strength to daughter
from she to me to mine

full belly hiding
or belt it out the danger
lies with feline longing
through the heat
find the mate
apparently content
but it's kindness less than free
claw the covers honestly
grateful for the cost

oh yes I am come to see me
locking on
engaged recognition
tasting this crazed particularity
and give it up for laughter
deep from bellies
catching breath as if we can
look again and laugh from deeper
no explanation
we are mirrors on this wavelength
who know at last it is pointless to judge

on the line
after all these years
your skivvies hang
now crotch forward
ever hopeful

I dream at will
both asleep and awake
swirling all colors  
delighting all
who happen to dance on my path

when Mimi died
I stayed in my state  
dug in the earth
loving her well
looking skyward
to see comet beauty
true face of owl
body papoose wrapped
again
*birth I celebrate

We miss you too much
Cat and I
He agreed to run these first crises through his body
I do not know what is next.

in a moment of safety
securely unknown
I ask
what value the scarring hard earned
and when I surrender
what harm that I've lost my edge
since I know nothing
what of the wisdom
I blindly vow to share
timely or timeless
a breath of the essence
nourishing fragrance of care

years together
assume naught to discover
yet this very day
we've been never this way
presently changing
beyond rearranging
perhaps you don't recognize me
and  who  
now  
are  you ?

for you, my friend
I practice attention
mesmerized by dignity
memorize a likeness
unified beauty
blue heron
stillness
strikes
home