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kip Aug 2020
i'll just wait a few days
wait until i finally get courage to gaze
gaze deeply into your eyes at night
watch them dilate with the lack of light
when that time comes
i'll constantly fill my lungs
i just want the connection
that comes with your affection
making sure that everything will be okay
with my heart blocking my airway
my fear of rejection makes me cry
i don't want the tears dripping down my thigh
i'm screaming in laughter
but so nervous to go after
kip Oct 2020
ᵀʰᵉ ᵍʰᵒᵘˡˢ, ᵒʰ ᵐʸ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵃ ᶠʳⁱᵍʰᵗ!
ᴴⁱᵈᵉ ᵘⁿᵈᵉʳ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵉᵈ ᵗᵒⁿⁱᵍʰᵗ
ᴷᵉᵉᵖ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵗᵒᵉˢ ᵘⁿᵈᵉʳ ᵗʰᵉ ˢʰᵉᵉᵗˢ,
ᴹᵒⁿˢᵗᵉʳˢ ˢʰᵃˡˡ ʷᵃˡᵏ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵗʳᵉᵉᵗˢ!

ᴮᵉʷᵃʳᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵒˡᶠ ʰᵒʷˡⁱⁿᵍ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵐᵒᵒⁿ,
ᴬⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵍʳᵉᵉⁿ ᵐᵒⁿˢᵗᵉʳ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃᵍᵒᵒⁿ!
ᵂⁱᵗᶜʰᵉˢ ᶠˡʸ ᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵉⁱʳ ᵇʳᵒᵒᵐˢ
ᴰᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜˡᵒʷⁿ'ˢ ᵇᵃˡˡᵒᵒⁿˢ!
kip May 2020
crediting you as my savior
like you did me a favor
turning into spite
causing so much smite
dying within the walls
where we once had our calls

would it be a waste
if i still chased
when there's always a dullness
hidden in the truthfulness
when your feelings have faded
and i'm completely jaded

tired of this sophistry
anagapesis - loss of feelings for someone who was formerly loved
kip Jul 2020
I've been so afraid
of being alone
feeling the warmth
of your arms and heart
makes me truly unafraid
of the unknown
that is being alone

although fast and perilous
I still feel your love
I still feel your heart
beating through
the screen
beating with
mine
kip May 2020
criticism to help improve
taken as a disadvantage
one who will not approve
in order to feed their madness
kip Jun 2020
I know you don't mean it
but it still burns
like you put a cigarette
to my heart
and left it there for hours
kip Jun 2020
when we have our fallouts
I've always had my doubts
wanting you to retrace your steps
so I could see what would happen next

I haven't cried
even though I tried
when you dismissed my feelings
you left me there, staring at ceilings

I don't feel sorry for my heart
it was you, who drifted us apart
making assumptions at my expense
while you made everything tense

wanting you to finally come back
returning with all the things you lack
now I see you for who you truly are
you permanently left time with a scar

please, don't come back
you won't get a plaque
you won't get brownie points
because we've got no joints
kip Jun 2020
drowning in roses
and all these blouses
of tasteless men
thinking of you every now and then
kip Jul 2020
i must learn
that a day
wasted
doesn't mean
another love is
tainted
kip Aug 2020
always the first to confess
yet always telling myself to do less
rejection left and right
now all i wanna do is flight
kip Jun 2020
anywhere you go, i follow
even if it were to the end of the world
but i don't wanna die tonight
just one more night
kip Apr 2020
I feel so happy
that you enjoy my presence too
euphoria doesn't even describe it completely
and I would've never expected that from you
kip Apr 2020
I remember looking upon the water
feeling the ripples through my fingers
almost falling asleep
to the sorrowful wind

now I cannot fathom the thought
of being anywhere alone
anywhere that you aren't
falling asleep on your shoulder
kip May 2020
taking the words right out my mouth
stealing my style and patterns
appropriating my thoughts and ideas
for your own use

you're so stale and instinctive
you have to take all my creativity
all the energy that I've put
into even living, and you've yet to take my last breath
kip Apr 2020
you are one that cannot be described
for you are so different
so unique
so original

ineffable people
make the most remarkable impression
you've electrified me
my heart cannot stop beating
kip Apr 2020
figuring out
the missing pieces

seeking to find
the next part
kip May 2020
my heart breaks
every time it aches
yearning for just a touch
when I can barely even clutch

you play with my heart stings
and I just want to do things
that'll somewhat matter
to a heart that I'll flatter

now I hurt a heart
and then it'll just fall apart
nothing but liefdesverdriet
that's the only way I see it
kip Apr 2020
it all washes over
the way it never ends
constantly thinking about it
it's hard to always pretend
kip Apr 2020
separated by distance
separated by my lack of courage
trying to make my love obvious
yet I cannot stop being so obnoxious
kip Aug 2020
read between the lines
renaissance finally blooms
gaining new substantiality
the heart always confines
life itself finally resumes
blooming into abnormality
kip Jul 2020
only really caring
about what they think
because of what they have
in their pockets

none of them could care
less
and you can tell by
the way they talk
kip May 2020
missing for six months
crying every night
now that feeling is gone
and nothing will ever make it alright

wanting him to come home
whimpering for hours at a time
seeking for everyone's attention
because he never came back at nighttime
kip Jun 2020
traveling through a nighttime universe
with me in your arms again
the stars shine so brightly
but you shine even brighter

when I wake up once more
you're gone, never to been seen again
now dancing alone in the rain
puddles forming at my feet

your coldness, what was once the warmth
hints of light, shining in my eyes
with your heart tapping with mine
freezing in a winter's night again
kip Apr 2020
it feels strange
being so isolated
remembering all those times
when nothing had to change

not being able to see friends
doing goofy things with them
talking about life and our future
and actually looking forward to weekends
kip Jun 2020
watching the sunrise
orange and pink skies
midnight passes by
the sun, oh so shy
kip Sep 2020
why does it feel like i'm falling
in a bottomless pit
in an everlasting nightmare
kip Apr 2020
my heart is a ticking time bomb
as every love makes it ache

every heartbreak takes a piece off my heart
until it'll completely explode
kip Jun 2020
when I say I'm tired,
it doesn't mean I'm sleep-deprived
I'm just tired of never waking up from this nightmare
kip Jul 2020
I have no patience for ignorance
and no heart for the entitled
no mercy for hypocrisy
and no tolerance for contemptuous people

knives keep on stabbing
and stabbing
I cannot see where they're coming from
I didn't realize they were even in my back
until I started complaining

how nice to find a knife
with the fingerprints
of someone you trusted
then they let out all your secrets
and my pain was revealed, oh what a tragedy

now I must fend for myself
from every negligent friend
hoping it'll all be over soon
but they keep on stabbing
this is a bit random, but I wrote this poem about a specific situation I'm currently in. all my friends turned their backs on me, then continue to backstab me over and over again
kip Jul 2020
loving the attention
that you give me
finally being able
to fantasize
without the feeling
of superiority and dominance
innocence
and loss of ****** thoughts
kip Jun 2020
crying in my bed at night
thinking of you at every sight
dying in front of the tv screen
now my floors are never clean

he walks away
I can't live another day
sitting on my own
always waiting at the phone

crying with no one knowing
your image constantly glowing
I've caused all my pain
I was always under your reign
kip Sep 2020
why am i never enough
for him
for his heart

why can't i be
his dream
his desires

only pushed away
by him
by other affairs

though i do not own his heart
it hurts
it shatters
kip Sep 2020
wincing at the thought
of other love affairs
though i tell myself
to not mind the tears

my love forbidden
looked down upon
for a million reasons
now crying at the brink of dawn

losing my words
when you show affection
to not i but
with whom you feel a connection

saying i ratify
yet inside i try
to convince myself
that i'm your ally
you
kip May 2020
you
i saw this coming
but it moved right through me
my heart cracks at every moment
i think of you

i know i can't hold on
i know i can't cry
i have to be strong
and not take away my pride

everything seems so stale
now that you're gone
not wanting to have anything to do
with everything that i stand by

my thoughts always surrounded by you
all i ever wanted to do
was take your hand and then leave this place
we'd be happy together, but you were never mine

i know i can't hold on
i must leave you be
but i can't help but think
of you

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