Everyday
I find and underline
another few new
favourite things
i love
about you.

Caught a whisper echoing
Down a bleak corridor
Turned, expecting to see you there
See your face smiling back at me
Sharing somebody's old joke
And we’d laugh out loud at the silliness
But all I caught was a fleeting memory
A glimpse of our yesterday
A moment of happiness, shared
A stab of icy pain
Deep within the heart
Drags the austere reality,
Back to this moment
Forcing me to see I am alone
Staring down a long desolate corridor
For you are gone, far beyond reach

i'll be dancing on your tightrope
praying that the winds don't change

I'm angry with you for staying away because we only have a short time to know each other. You'll have a life, I'll have a life, this is IT. This is the time we have. And you're wasting it, even though I know you care about me. You're ******* it up, the only time we have to change each other, to help each other, to love each other. I gave you the least amount of pressure humanly possible for someone who loves another person. I asked only that you not stay away, and you couldn't even do that. I am angry with you because you are squandering your chance to be loved by me, and my chance to love you. There are no strings, no demands, nothing. The ONLY thing I begged you for was time to be near you, in whatever way you chose. And you ran. Because you think there's forever, you think you can just flit back and forth and there's time to be cowardly, but there just isn't. I adore you, but every day you stay away, I realize more how utterly foolish you are, and what we're both losing because of it.

if i pour myself into someone else's glass what happens when they leave me there with my own condensation dropping into small puddles. everything has been poured out of me and i'm in the middle of the desert looking for a raindrop in the sand dunes. i forgot what it's like not to just depend on myself for everything i've ever needed and i feel so ******* abandoned i'll blame everything on you and wonder why you left me out in the ocean when you know i'm afraid of the ******* waves. i just want your riptide in my perimeter so you can pull me so close i'll go under and drown because that's so much better than being alone in this ******* town. i'll miss you so much i'll forget how to breathe and how to sleep and everyone keeps asking what the **** is wrong with me. i keep searching for bits and pieces of you in random places but my favorite place to search is the bottom of the shot glass and i keep looking in the same ******* place as if i'll find you there. i never ******* find you there and by the end of the night glass is on the floor and there's throw up in my hair.
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So he treats you like ****
and I'm left to guess
as to why you still love him
Is it the fact that in spite
of his apparent disdain
for your wants and needs,
he still gives you
his undivided attention
for ten minutes at a time
at the end of the night?

I want to tell you a secret

a chance to glimpse the truth


This heart of gold you see

the kindness, the care

the soft-spoken words

soaking away your despair


This heart does not intend

to bring you harm

but it will

The Lines drawn,
Your heart claimed Eden,
I dare not intrude,
Fears of the serpents held,
But Forbidden fruit
never looked sweeter