This year I resolve to not curse my heart or curse at my feelings because owning up to that begins my healing

I resolve to live and love as hard as I can and always cross those lines drawn in the sand

I hereby say ******* to any haters and people who never had my back because I never gave you reason to attack

I also swear to never compare myself to another unless they're my brother I can't follow anymore I'm going to lead

I also resolve to let down my pain forged armor and fight on in heart and in spirit.
I'm through paying a victim. I'm going on through with this.

Hmm... I guess I'm making more changes than I thought I'd do at all
I guess I'll call this a new years overhaul

I cling to the edge of the cliff
I'm grasping

Waiting for them to take my hand
To pull me

It's funny how I got here though
I'm laughing

I reached out mine to all of them
They used me

I gave up my own weight for theirs
I'm falling

I could not let them fall instead
They left me

I loved so I could have a friend
I'm lonely

They never asked me to help them
I'm failing

To understand that I have no one to blame but myself

I don't want to
Feel this way,
But I just can't.
And I don't know why,
But I can't stop thinking about you.

Do you do the same for me?
Probably not.

i can feel my heart beat in my ears