My dog is dead
It sounds disrespectful to word it like that
A family member passed away
A part of my heart
Left when she did
2 family members
Gone in a year
The house is quite
So quite
You could hear a pin drop
It’s not the same
It never will be

I secretly want a big family
One that gathers at the dinner table
Each night
Night caps
Children I can truly know
A partner I can life my life with
The way we want to
Birthdays parties
Friends and family celebrating
Not becaue we have to
Because we want to celebrate each other
Celebrate the love in each of us

Turning to the moon for guidance
Knowing she’ll guide me all night long
Finding comfort
In  knowing I’m safe w her
Walking along
These deep dark streets
Chills  domino across my bare arms
Looking up to see
Her almighty glow
My eyes target onto the moon
Following the aura

I’m at better person
Then I was when you met me
I have confidence
And love for myself
I’m more self aware and loving
When you left
I thought the world was over
That I’ll never love again
But now I see that’s incorrect
I have a new perspective of love
The boundaries on love
And what it means to actually love
I have evolved
A new mentality

I love the static after a vinyl had finished
I love how she spins on a slant
And moves like the ocean
How it plays and asks nothing in return
Although I will never be able to wrap my head around how indents create sound
I will love her with my whole heart
Until she it too exhausted to play
And even then I will cherish
The love she gave me

You feel for the bad me
The one that smoked , skipped school
Gave up on her dreams
Gave up on herself
It may just be a coincidence
But why leave when I wanna be better ?
Why not stay to see
What I can become
We can become ?

I love getting butterflies
The first time our lips touched
It felt like everything changed
My mind exploded with excitement
I was fascinated with it
But when I kissed him
It wasn’t the same
It was touch but not butterflies
No build up just a kiss
It wasn’t us anymore
It was a stranger and a stranger
I couldn’t recognise who I was
If my lips were on the mouth
Of someone that didn’t give me that joy
It felt like a betrayal
Even though you decided
Our lips could never touch again