Tell me if you liked
the pain beckoning you
from my tornado eyes

I cut my heart out
not realizing I didn't have
to ****** my hands to
win the approval of a man

I heard you liked
your girls broken
Maybe that's why
I dug pieces of my
soul out for you
Placing them eagerly
at your feet like
a dog with a ball

I kept coming back
for more and you
kept supplying me
with the drug
of your touch

If only I'd known
you'd put a dagger
to my throat just
to watch me scream

If only we loved wisely,
we had so much to learn
but like eager youths
we raced ahead too quickly
opening the pages of our
love story, skipping the
prologue to the best parts

I've felt sadness
I've felt it in my heart
My brain
My chest
My robot limbs
Coursing through my veins;
My low killing contaminant.

I've felt it slither through me
At the most unsuspecting times,
As I lay in bed at night
Thinking of you.

My own personal viper,
Rich red, blood red,
Deadly and vicious.
Sent especially for me,
From you, with condolences.

How thoughtful.
The beast is implacable.
He stalks me day and night.
But not so restlessly
As the thoughts of you.

I suspect you planned it.
Nothing is so obvious
You are in the very air I inhale
In each platonic gesture
Forced kisses and apathetic eyes
Eyes blinking through a blurry haze.

Nothing.
Nothingness.

There's an empty feeling inside my heart,
Like someone came and stole it away
And maybe you did.

I thought I could heal you
with the ocean of my heart
The vastness of my feelings
that stretch for miles.

Instead I drowned you
within my waves of affection
the storms that made me
overwhelming and cruel
and for that *I'm sorry

your voice lulls me
into deep slumber
my head filling
with wild dreams

the fearful musings
of a girl falling
over the crumbling
pieces of her heart

drowning in the blue
of your eyes
the luscious pink
of your lips that
I ache to kiss