We fuss. We
            fight. We
    shout. We
   cry.

But after those
      tiresome quarrels
   and arguments,
                      it always ends up
          with a smile.

                We hold
     each other's back,
          and that's
               how
                    crazy we're in love.

I am now marrying the heart of the night
trying to escape from the shadows of the past,
perhaps, I am once a despicable, foolish knight;
but all I have now is because love already lasts.

I pushed myself beyond my comfort zones,
just for me to grow, and struggle, and start living,
but you were too blind for my tears, I prolonged;
and all I am now is because love found its end.

You stained every thought I only have in mind
I could not even hold the pain inside my chest,
I am now marrying the heart of the night
trying to escape from the shadows of the past.

I may not be able to provoke beauty
in my words.
Nod.
For I'm just a writer with no experience
of any masterpiece.

But for those appreciations, all of you
have given to my works.
Smile.
For each has left butterfly that will always
be inside my chest.

And that is irrevocable.

I've missed being drowned
in the sweet smell
of your perfume;
the phantom
of the past
haunts me,
I'm all alone.
Tell me, how can I
see the street lights
with you again,
when I'm here,
at the corner,
watching you kissing him?

Because of that love,
I loved.
Because of that love,
I cared.
Because of that love,
I hid.
Because of that love,
I changed.
Because of that love,
I tried.
Because of that love,
I compelled.
Because of that love,
I condemned.
Because of that love,
I lost.
Because of that love,
I lied.
And because of that love,
I cried.

Three days were left
and I'll be gone forever.
Forever means,
you won't see me anymore.
And if you're lucky enough
to see me in the news
or hear my name.
Then probably,
that would be the time
that I was dead.

I never write my words to make you smile,
rather, to make me be loved by your love.
I still keep waiting under this old oak tree
to where I want you beside here with me;
we will watch the sun sets along the horizon,
and together read the lines of my poems.
This feelings worth fighting for, the problem,
if you accept it for you to be dethroned.
I need you to be my queen under my castle,
under the heart full of wishes and dreams,
you will not find emptiness behind my walls
I will be with you till this world will end,
and I never write my words to make you smile,
rather, to make me be loved by your love.

No one is strong enough to hold back the tears.

Who is she, Mama?
Why is she asking
money from us?
"She is a beggar, son."
Don't you have
any coins Mama?
Who are them, Mama?
What are they after
from those garbage cans?
"They are searching for food,
and for money, son."
Is there someone could
throw away food, Mama?
Is there someone could
waste money, Mama?
Where are their mother?
Father? Family?
Are they sleeping alone
in the streets tonight?
Mama, why are you closing
the windows of the car?
"This place is so stinky, son."
Is it wrong to smell
something like that, Mama?

Mama, why are we different?
Mama?

Are you crying, Mama?
Why?

Let the cold wind
of the night serenades
the earth,

Let the golden moon
surrenders the shadows
captivated by fears,

Let the little voices
whisper words for joy;
rejoice fate,

And let my hallow soul
celebrates on my
beloved death.

I am young man, conquered a few phrases
And my name is never pronounced by others' lips
I condemned myself for seeking words to rhyme;
For I've been in poetry, years after years of my life:
I may have not those qualities to be a renowned poet,
I will still write even Shakespeare stoop at me upset:
I love composing poems, whatever others may say
For I am prone upon this kind of art, day after day,
Poetry; is where my heart and my my mind solidifies
Tho I may have not a motif for others to be inclined.
He (Shakespeare) is already a diamond; I am not!
Dreams are where it all began, so I will never stop:
There are many prolific writers, better than what I may
Yet my hands will still write even Shakespeare detests me.

Hysterical.

They hate us,
when they also talk
about destinies.
People are fond
of breaking hearts
then fixing it.

We will build castle
out of the bricks
they threw at us.
Love is beyond
any beautiful scenery
in the world.

Never let go
of the things
for the unknown.
They have hatred,
we have love;
we are love.

one plus one...

          ...equals one,

two minus one...

          ....equals zero.

your languor
for our elation;

your torment
for our delight;

your debts
for our salvation;

your hunger
for our appetite

Burning like ice.
          Cold like fire.
                    Somehow,
                              planets will collide.

That every feeling was just a "fool's gold",
and it's better to bury it again,
for I'm tired of being head in the sand in love;
I will return those hills and mountains
which we both have moved together,
like every step on that wonderful horizon
must not be anymore seen,
like every ocean of tears which drowned
and killed these eyes must now rejoice.
When you do expect winning her hand again,
or somehow those old feelings,
you might be lost, heart withered,
with this thing we called pain...

Goodbye my beloved anonymous.

my greatest creation
every time i fall
to  my own instinct,
my loveliest breath
every time i'm suffocated
from that garbage of tears,

here, i could do anything
my heart desires:
i could burn the rain,
i could freeze the fire;
no one can hurt me,
i control everything
like turning every sunset
into sunrise,

hey!

the coffee on my metal cup
is now getting cold,
i should drink it up
before i will lose the day;
the alarm clock above my head
is now shouting so loud,
i should better wake up ---

to face the reality...

There's nothing wrong
when you show them
your tears. Let them
know you were hurt,
and don't just pretend
you are strong and brave.

With all these words
     I'm trying to utter right now,
With all these words
     I'm asking deep inside my heart;
With all these words
     I really want you to hear;
With all these words
     that come from
     the highest atmosphere.

I'm missing you,
     do you miss me too?
I need you,
     do you need me too?
I care for you,
     do you care for me too?
I love you...
     and would you hug me
     and say, you do?

Have you ever experienced like everybody
is watching, waiting for you to lose?
Have you ever felt like always been
misunderstood, and just being used?
Have you ever tried to elude from a thing
you thought was true?
Have you ever been waged in a war,
which caused hatred to grow?

There will always be lonely nights,
leading you to find no hope on fighting.
Don't kick the chair,
for tomorrow will all be yours,
just don't kick the chair,
soon enough, it will be over.

Have you ever been holding on for someone,
who can't even pay the worth of your pain?
Have you ever ripped yourself on a situation,
which only you were blamed?
Have ever seemed living in a spotlight
grasping for a reason to breathe?
Have you ever restrained for your life,
but then, the easiest way was death?

Tell me. We might be sailing with the same boat,
people are trying to delude you on a storm.
They are sitting there, waiting for your fall;
and their happiest moment is when you crawl.

There will always be hard times,
which you can only carry, are your hands.
Don't kick the chair,
for tomorrow will heal your tears,
just don't kick the chair,
soon enough, you will get better.

Let me die
not because of hunger
and thirst,
but of missing you
that would only
make me sick.

I can't promise much,
I may not be the one you ever need,
And I may not know what's running on your mind...

But guess what?

I will be here for you
     until hell freezes...

My eyes are empty, they lied to you,
my heart was broken from wanting you,
bring us to the past, it was all perfect
shallow life just gave us these scars.

My eyes are empty, they cried for you,
my feet were standing in darkness with you,
we might meet in heaven on a moonlight,
let me be your angel as I bid my last goodbye.

As fireworks
kissed the stars,
may it bring
peace and love
to every
aching heart.

.
.
.

four...

three...

two...

one!...

MERRY CHRISTMAS
and
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

....walking in the woods,
              without thinking
                         its dangerously dangerous danger.

What dragging us to cold anguish...


                   ...is this loud silence.

there are so many mirrors,
every memories I know
every street I go

they try to denounce me,
pull me down,
pull me down

i'm lack of existence,
lack of experience,
lack of senses

there are so many mirrors,
i can't break through them,
they try to break me in

my eyes are dead at night,
my heart burns like ice,
my heart burns like ice

Every moment
when I unclip your bra,
the wrong
feels wonderfully right,
the beautiful scenery
of your body,
perfectly naked,
turned me to start
kissing and sniffing
your neck.

I am him. He is me.

I looked at him, wondered ---
Does he ever feel the same?
He has my eyes, my nose,
my lips, my hair,
everything from me.
But I wondered,
Does he ever feel the same?

I touched him, he also touched me.
I talked, he also talked,
but I can't hear his voice.
He could predict my actions;
If I laugh, cry,
weep, and smile,
he always imitates me.
But I wondered,
Does he ever feel the same?

We are friends;
the truth and the lie.
Sometimes enemies;
but if I'll **** him, I'll die.
I wondered,
Does he ever feel the same?

I am him. He is me.

If only we exchange worlds...

It was a cold, dark and difficult Wednesday
night;
I was walking through a lonely street beneath
the moonlight:
I can't stop thinking of her for a thousand times,
When I'm about to feel that her love is just a lie.

The tears were falling when we broke up only
yesterday,
Yet I still went to her house to tell the last
goodbye.
And I can't believe that our love has its end,
We loosened the tie and we just turned up on
pretending.

After a few minutes...

As I was standing one step apart from her door,
I found something yet I didn't mind it at all;
Still I walked forward and once opened her
house,
And there I saw something that really brought
me down.

I found her lying in front of me on her own
blood;
With a knife on her hand and a letter of her
love.
It was a sorrowful moment I could never ever
forget to see,
When that letter was telling that she killed
herself because of me.

Our destinies suddenly intertwined,
our souls point the way to our hearts,
I don't care why we met,
the only thing I know
is that I fell under your spell.

The hand I grab
says I won't leave you,
I'll never leave you dear,
I can promise everything now
because there's no tomorrow.


Can you hear something echoing
louder than words?
I'll never waste this chance,
my love will forever be
in your resonance.

The lady in red
wakes up every morning in  her bed
seizes the light of the sun
to embrace her day with fun

She changes her mind, yes!
like every girl does
but the lady in red
is now the lady in black

The lady in black
walks with her bare feet at noon
trying eliminate the past
from the tears she ever owned

She changes her mind, yes!
like every girl does
but the lady in black
is now the lady in white

The lady in white
wanders at night the world
from the zenith of her achievements
to the abyss of her downfall

She changes her mind, yes!
like every girl does
and the lady in white
is now back to be the lady in red

Sometimes, I realized
that I don't need you anymore,
your words sounds so cruel
though it's not even my mistake.
You always complain
that I'm doing it wrong,
can you not see
I'm doing it right for you?
You're trying to change the person
you may haven't  known yet,
so stop taking me to the edge,
where the end is near,
for I always let you win
in this tug of war.

But even if you used
to be like what they heard,
I can still find a reason to stay
inside the warmth of your heart.
I'm falling in love even more
the moment you utter my name,
always makes me think
that you're one of a kind,
so why should I lose you?
And so most of the times
I then realized
that I can't imagine
life without you,
that living alone
with no love of yours
feels like committing suicide.

I put myself in a bottle,
throw it into the sea;
in the midst of this battle,
waves crashes over me.

Waiting for blinding sun
and cold light of day,
troubles, weigh a ton,
take my fears away.

I am alone in horizon,
from morn till even;
my life only begun
in Your Heaven.

Impressions,
     Expectations,
          Disappointments,
Imprinted on beautiful
minds.
Rivers ran through
my veins,
As I tried to bite off
more than one can chew;
To every music,
I danced
But I cut my tongue,
once.

Skeptics,
     Critiques,
          Vanity
Even at the depths of
my despair,
Good things were dead,
worsts were born;
I was distorted by lies
because I lied too
So I cut my tongue,
again.

Changes,
     Changes,
          Changes
In every rhythm of
my breath,
I tried to re-build
those memories,
Still I could not.
I might hurt people
with my words,
Better cut my tongue
into pieces.