Do you know
What it feels like
To call out your name
Knowing….
You’ll never answer me

Do you know
What it’s like
Living with the pain
Of missing you
Realizing….
You’ve erased my name
From your memory

So tell me
Am I to blame
If I burn the pages
Of our story
Knowing……
There’s nothing left
To reminisce

So tell me
Would it be wrong
If I scatter the ashes
Of our love
Realizing……
It has been ages
Since we cremated
Our love

-Jess

I worship your ghost
And I look for your shadow
But I've forgotten
That I'm the phantom
Running along the corridor
Searching.....
For my broken heart
That you keep in a jar
Too many pieces
Of bleeding love
You stored
Too many bottles of life
You've ripped out
Where's mine?!
I fall down to the floor
Drowning with frustration
Choked with anger
Knowing......
I'm just another additional art
Of the broken heart you've collected

-Jessa

From the depth
Of my broken heart
I send my love
Through the wind

From the depth
Of your broken heart
I feel the pain
In every beat

Maybe your hand
Never touched this skin of mine
But still.....
The caress lives within my soul

Maybe I've never seen you
Eye to eye
But the image of your face
Will never be erased from my sight

This longing
It's too painful to bear
Distance.....
It's tearing us apart
Where reality is nowhere
To be reached

I become.....
Something you couldn't embrace
Separated
By time and space

I'm the shadow
Of agonizing memory
No more me
As I fade into the darkness
Gone..... Within the night

-Jess / Jessabelle Autumn

To be defeated
Swallowing the pain
Without spilling tears
I hide everything in my smile

To be easily pushed away
Falling on the ground
With bleeding wounds
I pretend to be strong

To be blamed
Choked with false guilt
Suffocating in a thick haze
I struggle to breathe

To tell lies
Burying sorrow inside
Broken trust with faded faith
I still try to believe

But
I will never break free
For my love is vengeance
And always has been

-Jess

Counting the days
Living without you
Agony I hide
Behind this face

Counting the nights
Sleeping without you
Bury my sorrow
Within the pillow

My heart screams
Every minute
For this pain is too much
My mind is heavy
Restless.....
Carrying our memories

But where to reach out
When you're gone
Where do I run
When there's no escape
Where's home
When you took away the shelter

Dying inside
I hold your name
Tight.... Never to let go
For it holds
What's left of my serenity

-Jess