Jennifer Weiss

Jennifer Weiss Aug 2016

It has been so long
since I sat to type.
Of dreams, and heart things
and what my life is like.
It flows so naturally, I almost forgot...
The way I worked things out
Here in this spot.
Its like running a mile
and knowing yourself better by the end.
Like reading someone else's words written about you,
Words written by a friend.
I don't know where I am going,
But once I read back on where I've been...
I know I'm going somewhere
Different than the place I'm in.

#reflections #history #amen #thankyoujesus #pastwritings

Jennifer Weiss Apr 2016

It is No One Else's Faith to Work Out

Following God some days feels like a cruel joke.
I get my head above some water...
then lose my place and begin to choke.
What is it I'm not doing?
Have I not done enough?
Or is it my heart He is pursuing,
merely a calling of my bluff.
This thought goes on to throw me,
aren't I worth more than being tested to prove
I'm tough?
Or is it because I am worth He is testing,
because I'm already enough.
It is in my heart I raise each question.
Struggling to know...
Is my God really for me?
Or like everyone else...
will He go?

Jennifer Weiss Apr 2016

Make it Beautiful

I was a very dramatic writer,
once upon a time...
I believed in so many things
as hard truth,
yet they were mere lies.
Melancholy can catch me,
if I dwell on this old life for too much time.
But I rather set my mind on things above,
remembering He has me in mind.

I have been scared to love again.
With only a month left on my sentence.
But I am starting to fear not the challenge of relationships.
knowing I am far from finished.
There's a beauty up ahead,
and I am in it to win it.

Jennifer Weiss Mar 2016

Don't Cry Anymore for Me

I do not need the world,
At all.
The winds and the waves crash,
and the calamity ensues...
and I sometimes
don't even know.
people fall in love,
receive fame, fortune,
accolades and more.
Yet, there's always something missing.
Something still not there,
that wasn't there before.
....
I remember that feeling.
The craving, insatiable emptiness
That can only be filled one way.
And you're always pushing the line further
and there's nothing you won't do for just a day.
.....
It isn't that way anymore.
I have a new sense of dissatisfaction.
My heart can only be mended one Way.
In only one fashion.
Whenever I am not at peace,
I look to the sky
and the Lord reaches back out
to me.

#restless #ohwell #coffeeshop #helpmelord #shouldbedoinghomework

Mar 2016

Veronika

to my daughter

You're not going to always get the perfect things
And you're not always going to feel the best
But to me you will be just right
And if you're wrong I will explain and teach you better;
You're not going to like me for it,
Sometimes we will be enemies instead of best friends
And it will be a sad time when you keep secrets from me
But I will try to be tolerant and excuse you,
Remembering myself at your age.
Know that the hardest thing is not letting go of someone, but keeping a hold of yourself whilst you have them;
Know that music is merely an escape into a bunch of emotions we apply to reality and not the other way round;
Know that your actions must be sincere and noble no matter what and you will be okay.
I love you.

#love #mother #daughter

Jennifer Weiss Mar 2016

Blessed as can be

Oh, 'twas the fierce love I once detested.
Crying out "why" from my corner of land.
It was the capacity to perform I once loved,
keeping me from my promised land.
There's a settling in on the horizon,
a shifting of views.
What I once saw as curse,
I now see as brand new.
A blessing from the Heaven
of the Lord our God.
For what I thought I needed,
He gave not.

truthfully, I will love every part of me.

#love #blessings #eventhebad #itisallforthegood #fearfullywonderfullymade

Jennifer Weiss Feb 2016

To Write A Paper, or A Poem?

Oh the sin I've been in,
let it trouble me no more.
I know I am forgiven,
the question now is what for?
To torture myself into Eternity...
or to walk through some newly opened door?
I think the purpose burns on the inside of me,
to be haunted never more.
I dream of things He reveals to me.
Like coveting what is not mine.
And I turn from this completely,
relaxing in my bit of time.
There is no such as a life that is better than mine.
I am convinced I have been given something
utterly Divine.

I choose both!

#love #god #reflections #repentance #covetnolonger #dothedarnthing #gettowork