J - Hello Poetry

J Nov 2020

I’m getting tired of saying

I’m fine

I don’t want to talk to people to lie

I’m fine

I don’t want to pretend in meetings

I’m fine

I can’t take time off to lie to myself

I’m fine

#im #fine

J Jul 2020

Alone

First hangover post lockdown
I don't think I've ever felt more alone
Maybe it's the hangover or
Maybe I finally I can say it

I don't know if, I would have felt
Any different if we had lockdown together
But you gave me everything
And I took you for granted

Maybe I would have noticed it more
All the things you did,
How you gave have me your heart
And you were always there

I don't know where you are
How you are
But I hope your safe
I hope you are happy

#alone #lockdown #hangover

J Sep 2019

For The Longest Time

I never understood
Why I can't be happy,

It always feels like happy is
Only ever a temporary thing.

Sometimes life drags you down
Life's really not bad yet it hurts,

It's so hard to sleep,
Even worse getting up.

Do I hate myself so much
I refuse to enjoy my life?

Seems like all weeks are tough lately, work is tough but I don't think it's just that.

#happy

J Jul 2019

Void

I feel like I am just,
Waiting for time to pass

I don't want anything,
I don't need anything

I want this period of time,
To just finish and be done

I'm not angry
Or empty nor sad

Yet it's hard to answer,
'Are you alright?'

Because I don't know how I feel

Guess I will go to the gym
Drink till I'm blind

And hope that soon
That I won't be so bland

J Jul 2019

Stop

Will everything please stop,
Can I have one thing a time,
I'm still, busy with me...

...I can't catch my breath...

I'm trying to be better,
But I just can't breathe,
The world is running away with my air.

...And I can't catch up...

#stop #breath #time

J May 2019

Sorry

I should have said
...
But how do I say
I wish I loved you
But I don't

..................

This is the worst
Thing I could have done
...
Not being honest
And hiding how I feel

..................

Now I am
What I don't
Want to be
...
Dishonest

.................

But time is
What I thought
Was best
...
How I was wrong

Prelonging thoughts is the worst thing I have done.

Be honest. Time won't help.

I thought in time I would fall for you.

#time

J Mar 2019

Last Breath

One day when,
My time has come,
With my last breath,
I hope,
The memory of this current moment,
Will be my final one.

#last #breathe #moment